Good Morning!
I took a long break from this special place that I created. I am not sure why, but I needed to. And it was good.
Writing has always been my outlet and this place was where I freely shared about my experiences and the hopes that I gathered from them. Over a decade ago my LaLa Land came to fruition completely unintentionally and by means of a series of stressful events. Moments that I chose to laugh, cry, write, run and hope my way through. At first it all came unconsciously and naturally. Over time it became purposeful, meaningful and ultimately life changing. The habit of finding hope in each new day, regardless of how crappy that day might be, became a gift that I gave myself. And although I feel like I’m a bit more predisposed to experiencing happy moods, it took work to get to HERE. It was a constant act of seeking and striving to find joy in every season of my life. I learned early on, to BE HAPPY in any situation that came my way, it was going to require DOING. LOTS AND LOTS OF DOING. I was up for the challenge and day by day I kept at it. And I am so glad that I did. I soon realized that this active hope-seeking process would be one of my biggest and most impactful acts of self-care that I could ever give myself.
Anyway, my absence from my blog was not the representation of my unhappiness or my inability to find hope anymore. It was a time for me to reflect and reset and to learn and grow. In fact, the end of 2019 was absolutely fabulous. I actually wished that I had shared more about those experiences. I thought that spending Christmas in Germany and ringing in the New Year with my family at the Arc de Triomphe in Paris was a sign of good things to come. And it was. Say, what?!!?
Yep, at least it was for me.
As ugly as 2020 has been for our world I have managed to enjoy much of it. The pandemic brought ALL four of my kids home. I was sad for this disruption in their young lives, but I admit, that this mama’s heart was so darn happy to have them close. I also started to relearn French and did THREE rounds of Elise Joan’s Barre Blend on Beach Body. And best of all, I found utter and complete joy in homeschooling Reese, my 11 year old daughter with Down Syndrome. If I didn’t know my purpose in this season before, I certainly did the moment that I saw her thriving in her new learning environment. It was INCREDIBLE.
As much as 2020 has brought unpleasantries, it brought rest and resolution for me. I started dissecting my need for busyness and realized that much of it came from a place of unrest and worry. Understanding this was probably one of the biggest revelations that I have ever had in my life. I am thankful for the awareness that I had to use 2020 as an opportunity to explore my WHYS. This exploration allowed me to find peace in stillness. So. Much. Peace.
Unexpectedly, the chaos of 2020 also cleared the clutter in my head and it sparked my desire to share my daily writings again. Truth be told, I have been writing for months now. I just have not posted anything on WordPress or on Instagram. I have chosen to just be wordy in my protected Facebook space.
But yesterday morning I woke up and my heart said, “it’s time to start blogging again”. And, here I am. I’m not exactly sure what it will look like this time around. I’m going to let it unfold naturally, like it first did, many years ago. All I know is that I want to be in this space again, doing what I love. So for what it’s worth, this mother, social worker, Down Syndrome advocate, Nutrition and Wellness Consultant, blogger, runner, yogi, barre enthusiast, essential oil lover, foodie and friend has returned to be a seeker of hope, a chaser of joy and a writer of things … all over again.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you rest, regroup and get back at it!!!