Joy in the journey …

Today we celebrated my son George! He is 19 years old and all I keep asking myself is HOW?!?! No matter how old he becomes or how tall he grows, George will always be my precious little baby. And the sweetest little boy who gave me the best and tightest hugs in the world. But as much as I have enjoyed watching George grow up, I’m finding it absolutely wonderful to see him take on the world and become the man he has envisioned. Being his mom has been one of the most beautiful experiences I have ever known. And I am so grateful that God chose me to walk through life with him.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you find joy in the journey!!!

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Loved and needed …

Having four children, and one with special needs, comes with an incredible amount of responsibility. Even with two adult children now, life can often seem like it’s pulling me in every direction possible. Maybe even in some directions not yet discovered by scientists and mathematicians, HA! I am constantly doing something for someone or planning something that needs to be (or someone wants to be) done. I am their GO-TO person for problem-solving and … cash. HA, again! We share long talks late at night and I receive ugly early morning wake up calls. I have event alerts on my phone for us along with calendars (TWO) posted in our kitchen to keep us organized. Every night I review my To-Do List for the next day. It is usually filled with things that they need help with. I am available 24 hours a day 7 days a week for them. Until I die. And even then, l’m sure that I’ll figure out a way to still stay involved. HA, again again!

Now, don’t get me wrong. I am NOT complaining. Actually, I feel like I’m bragging.

Why?

Because my kids are incredible human beings. They are thoughtful, kind, loving, responsible and driven. And they LOVE and NEED me. To be LOVED is wonderful. To be NEEDED magnifies love 10-fold. Heck, 1,000,000-fold. Is that even a thing?!?! Regardless, my heart is full. My life is blessed, SO BLESSED, because of these humans who I love beyond measure. It may sound exhausting, and honestly some days it is, but I wouldn’t trade this life with them for anything. I love that they still need me. That they choose to make me THAT person. Because really, they don’t have to. They can turn to friends and other family members who would be there for them just as readily as I am. But they go to me. Their mom. And well, I don’t think there has ever been anything in my life that has been quite so rewarding and humbling. I thank God every day for them and the privilege of being their mom. And all the duties and responsibilities that go with it and that I take on. It’s an honor. Truly.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel LOVED and NEEDED!!!

Over doing it …

Reese starts summer school tomorrow. Our district offers a summer session for students with special needs to help keep them on target. I’m very thankful for it! Reese loves school and this is one way to ensure she that keeps that momentum up for the school year. It’s also a shortened school day with lots of fun planned into their academic day. Reese has really enjoyed it the past few years. There is usually just over a week in between the school year ending and summer session starting. I tend to go a little kooky during this time trying to pack a bunch of fun in for her. And this summer I was probably a bit more ridiculous than in the past, HA! And I’m not sure why. This is not her only free summer time. She actually gets about 4-5 weeks at the end of summer with no school. But you know me. I can’t help myself when it comes to my sweet little girl. I want Reese’s life to be magical and fun and full of wonderful experiences. Because let me tell you, in this mom’s eyes, there is absolutely nothing better in the world than seeing her happy.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you over do it!!!

Our summer story …

It’s (almost) the most WONDERFUL time of the year! Tomorrow is Libs’ and Reese’s last day of school. Thank you SWEET BABY JESUS! It has been a long DOOZY of a school year and these girls need and deserve a break.

Summers look a lot different around here now. With Sid in San Francisco full time and George home from college but working, it’s definitely not the summers of our past. Gone are their days of early childhood. Thankfully, because of Reese, we are still allowed glimpses of them peppered into our every evolving lives. I cherish these moments that keep us connected to those carefree times. I wish that they were as abundant as they were, but I have learned to take what I can get. And trust me, I am grateful. Because even though they occur differently now, they are all still so precious to me. So. So. Precious.

As I look back over the past school year I am reminded of how quickly time passes. People grow out of routines. Life simply changes. Again, I am thankful. And even more so that this family of mine, just seems to roll with it. I am the one who hangs on tighter to the past. Which is silly because, as painful as I find all of this sometimes, I have found that change has never let me down. I have learned that as the pages of time continue to turn, it allows us to write new and adventurous tales into our family history. It is a perspective that has not come easy for me. But I’m continually feeling the comfort it brings me. It is nice to know that nothing is truly ending … it’s just the beginning of another new chapter.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you begin to write your summer story!!!

Love and a loss for words …

Happy Mother’s Day everyone! Words can’t express how much I miss my mom. But in a way that comforts me. It means that I loved and still love that woman HUGE. Sometimes you get lucky enough to experience something in life and you get to just FEEL it. For me it’s the motherly love she filled my life with. I can still feel it. But to describe it, explain its’ influence over me and how I feel about loosing her, is not something I’m capable of. It’s just too big. But I try to express it in different ways like living genuinely, just the way she taught me. And in sharing her legacy of hope every single day and at every opportunity I get. It may be 24 years since her passing but her influence on me, my family and our little world will continue on forever. And that is certainly something to celebrate.

Well, I hope you all have a day where love leaves you at a loss for words!!!

Fresh eyes and some new hope …

Reese and I saw her pediatrician today. Although the appointment had nothing to do with her feeding issues, of course her doctor asked. And I’m glad she did because we brainstormed a little. AND I am excited to report that we have a new consultation scheduled! We have tried it all. Therapies, assessments, scans, (you name it) to figure out why Reese is still not chewing. It has presented as an issue for both her nutrition and her safety. Heck, one of the main reasons I went back to school was to make sure I was doing everything I could to keep her off a feeding tube! Although I’ve been successful with her nutritionally the choking risk remains. And it’s scary. So needless to say, I am THANKFUL for this new opportunity and GRATEFUL to still have more options to explore.

Well, I hope you all have a day where fresh eyes give you new hope!!!

Best surprise EVER …

Yesterday Libs told me that Sid needed me to be home this morning to receive a package that would be delivered after 8 am. I originally thought that Sidney had accidentally shipped something important to me, instead of to herself. As I asked more questions about what to do with the package once it was delivered, I was told that the package was for me. Being Pi Day today I immediately thought that Sid somehow figured out how to send me a pie. HA! That is absolutely something she would do! But what she did, was even better.

When I returned home from Reese’s school this morning, I opened the door to my “package”. IT WAS SID! My sweet daughter booked an early flight and came HOME! I literally screamed when I saw her. Then I cried like a baby. I was missing her so much! Now with George coming home for Spring Break on Friday we will all be together again. YAY!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get the best surprise EVER!!!