Being an MSW and a parent for over 20 years has not given me an immunity from worry. Heck, sometimes I think they may have made it worse, HA! Trust me when I say that I have seen some ugly horrible situations. So when it comes to my precious babies (yes, I know two of them are adults now) I can’t shake the worry that comes when they are sick, injured or recovering from surgery. I know I should be a pro at this by now. But I’m not. And times like this are when it comes in handy to have an incredible friend. My best friend from high school is one heck of a woman. She is ALWAYS there for me. She is the level headed thinker when I am the wreck. She might be just as worried as I am but she pulls together a strength for me that is grounding. Her love and support has carried me through many times when I have felt scared and alone. And I couldn’t be more thankful for her.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you have someone to rely on!!!
Today is one of those days when I’m not sure one of me is enough. Yesterday round two of cold and flu season hit our home. Sid and Reese are both sick with fevers again. And these fevers are MUCH higher than the first time around. Ugh. This makes week FOUR of someone being sick here. Heck, I’m still not myself and it’s been almost two weeks since I first got sick. This YUCK lingers! On top of two girls down, George is getting his wisdom teeth pulled today. I got out of bed incredibly early to make sure he ate a huge breakfast since he can’t eat 8 hours before his surgery. I know he’s 18 now and could have made his own breakfast but he’s still my son. Moms lose it a little when it comes to the words CHILD and SURGERY. Well, at least I do. So needless to say I made him breakfast. Which was fine because I was awake anyway. I was up most of the night with Reese who was extremely restless. I was happy though, I was finally able to fall asleep for about an hour. YAY! Then it was time to wake up to do Libs’ hair for choir portraits today. She had to be at school early today. Of course she did. OY. But somehow I managed to get her to school UNUSUALLY early with her backpack, tennis bag, choir dress and hair and makeup done. Nothing forgotten! A miracle, if I do say so myself.
At some point today I’m going to cry. I just know it. My guess is when they take George back to have his teeth removed. I’ll have a moment alone and a second to breath. Let’s just hope it’s more tearful rather than blubber-y.
Clearly most of this crazy day piled up by no fault of my own. I scheduled George’s surgery months ago and we just found out about the portraits. And SICK happens whenever it happens. My friends and I joke that when I have a stressful day it’s not like everyone else’s normal scoop of stress. It’s got extra toppings, HA!
Days like this I am in awe that God trusts me so much. When I look in the mirror I see just one small woman. But God has put some major love, tenacity and determination into this little frame of mine. He’s packed me with everything I need to get through days like this. And I’m grateful. So, so grateful.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel like SUPERMOM!!!
Yesterday I had a telephone conversation with Sid while she was on her way to meet her boyfriend. She was taking the BART in San Francisco and telling me departure times and other little details. She was a pro at San Francisco public transit. I remembered our first time on BART together while we were touring colleges. This was several years go and I worried that this type of transportation would be too overwhelming for her. I was wrong to have worried. My, how times have changed.
Yesterday I had a telephone conversation with George while he was out picking out some luggage at a store in Petaluma. LUGGAGE. My son was buying LUGGAGE. He drives himself to stores, buys luggage, gets himself to airports and flies alone now. This is my child who NEVER paid attention to details or his surroundings. The one I worried about for the longest when he crossed streets. My, how times have changed.
Yesterday when I picked Libs up from school she got into my car. We looked at each other with relief and gave a “high -five”. We discussed how WE MADE IT through this HELLA crazy week. When Libs was little she was my LAZIEST child. She and I always joke that she sat on the couch for five years. Ah, the good ole days, HA! Now she takes AP classes, is in her school’s Digital Media Program, volunteers, sings and performs with the Women’s Advanced Choir and is on the tennis team. My, how times have changed.
I bought Reese a Barbie Accessory Advent Calendar this year. She has loved it! Every morning she opens it along with her advent book box and puts a new number ornament on her little wooden tree. We were in a rush yesterday morning so we decided to wait until later when she had time to enjoy it. Last night after her bath she did her Christmas countdown regime. She was very happy about the new Barbie running shoes she just opened up and was excitedly telling everyone. She was standing down the hallway and I had to stop. Her past and present collided. I remembered a scene from last Christmas Eve that I took a picture of and put in a photobook. It was of Reese as she excitedly stood in the same hallway as we were leaving to go see Christmas lights. She seemed so much taller than the little girl I remembered last year. Her speech has immensely improved. And her capabilities have grown by leaps and bounds. My, how times have changed.
Yesterday, was filled with precious memories of years past and of the beauty that comes with change. I am STRUCK by moments like these. I’m so grateful to experience them. They are a treasure. I love being MOM to these four incredible souls. They truly complete me. And their growth brings me nothing but pure JOY.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you grow!!!
Change … it ain’t easy! As my kids have gotten older and two have gone off to college, I’ve been worried that my younger girls wouldn’t have the same types of experiences we did when their siblings were home. Especially this time of year when we are ALL ABOUT family. I’m realizing now that’s just silly. Of course my girls are having the same experiences! Our traditions and adventures still happen they just don’t look the same. For instance, there are fewer people in the car and a lot less noise, HA! But in all seriousness, this took me a while to see. I had to grow into these changes and understand that everything was going to work out just fine. And it did. We still have fun and do everything we did before (and sometimes my big kids are able to join us via FaceTime) so this makes my mom heart very happy!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you see that everything is the same but different!!!
Today is my daughter Sidney’s birthday. She is the one who made me a mom and who helped me find the greatest joy I’ve ever known.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you are the one who started it all!!!
This afternoon Reese and I were playing with her stuffed unicorns. I think I’ve written about these little gems before. They are absolutely darling. The purple one is my favorite. After playing with him for a little while, I told Reese AGAIN how much I loved the toy. Reese looked up, looked at the purple unicorn in my hands then looked me right in the eye and said, “It’s mine.” Well … OK then, HA! Oh, this kid cracks me the heck up!
Well, I hope you all have a day where some one puts you in your place!!!
Today is Libs' 15th birthday. I remember her birth like it was yesterday. Her delivery room was like a party, filled with laughter. She came into this world in such a happy way and it truly set the tone for her life. This green-eyed beauty is so funny and has such a good heart. She will keep you smiling and have your back. She is loving and loyal. And she is also gifted. Smart and talented. She has a voice like an angel. She is honestly a joy to spend my days with and I absolutely love being her momma!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you celebrate a beautiful soul!!!