Burrowing my way to happiness …

I sleep with four blankets on my bed. Sometimes more. Some people would think they were being crushed to death or suffocated under the weight of all of it. Not me, I think it’s wonderful! As I laid in my bed at undead hours I decided I did not want to get up today. Nope. I even woke up before my alarm! But I came to the conclusion that my run and yoga could easily be pushed back until after I got everyone where they needed to be. Warmth and coziness seemed to prevail in importance over contorted poses and another cold tour through my neighborhood. Oh yeah, trust me it was the WAY better option. HA! I could feel the heaviness of my blankets this morning, but it wasn’t enough. I had to dig deeper into that bed of mine. I had to settle in completed immersed under all the dark, hot fluffiness. Ahhhhh.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you burrow your way to happiness!!!


Giddy with happiness …

Today marks the start of Reese’s Fall Break. Tomorrow marks Libs’. Sunday evening my son George flies home and then Wednesday evening my oldest daughter Sidney does. There is only one way to describe me right now.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are giddy with happiness!!!

Hopeful …

For most of my adult life if you were to ask me what the greatest mistake I could ever make was, I’d say it would be not fully appreciating my life. Seriously, THIS is my greatest fear. Perhaps it came from losing my mom when she and I were both so young, but that thought really bothers me. Our days may be long but our years are definitely short. For some, those years are even shorter. In my early twenties I made a decision that I wasn’t going to take one day for granted. I made it a goal to find happiness in each new day no matter what trials I faced. And I promised myself that I would relish every joyful moment I was given. I refused to live with regret or worry being the theme of my life. These choices have served me well. But I will admit, it takes a whole lotta work. It doesn’t always come easy, but this “habit” of mine is worth it.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are hopeful!!!


Go with the flow …

Winding down from the past eight days hasn't been easy. Coming home to a house that is down so many in numbers has just been weird. And of course now it's time to get ready for Libs' and Reese's first day of school next week AND their birthdays.

Life is ALWAYS busy. At least mine is. And I love it. I don't mean the busyness. I mean the "life" part. My life is never boring. It's full of change. It's full of happiness and pain. We have great times and we have struggles. It simply amazes me that it all keeps moving fluidly. And we just glide along with all of it mapping out a new course as each day passes.

I agree that times can be hard. I'm currently in one. I'm grieving the changes in our family. I miss my kids and what was. But I know I'll adapt and figure it all out. That is the beauty that comes with accepting life as it is and as it should be. It will come. This time might be difficult but my life is still incredible. I still laugh and enjoy every crazy mixed-up and turned around situation I find myself in. And I love and adore the people who I have chosen and who have chosen me share them with. We drift through this life together like a stream. My life takes many twists and turns. I don't always see what lies beneath the water. Heck, sometimes I don't want to. But it's all a part of this magnificent opportunity we have been given time and time again … to find joy in each new day. And as long as I have breath, no matter what I may be facing, I will seek it.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you go with the flow!!!


Head in the clouds …

I’ve always been a dreamer. I think it is one of my biggest flaws and one of my greatest blessings. Even when I was a young woman filled with anxiety I still managed to dream BIG. Now that I’m older many of my anxieties have fallen by the wayside which leaves lots of room for dreaming. I think that by allowing myself to dream I have had a better stronghold on hope. It really has worked for me in just about every situation I’ve been in. Even the really ugly ones. I think the ability to dream has also allowed me to maintain a certain measure of flexibility in my thoughts. If one thing doesn’t work out exactly the way I had hoped it can be easily modified. My thinking can be changed, and before I even realize it a new dream is in place. Some things have to change to bring us to the right place in our lives or to help us reach our goals, right?!?! From the bottom of my heart I believe that both God and the universe direct me in the way I need to go. I find so much comfort in that. Rigidity definitely has no place in this dreamer’s life. With all the twists and turns my life has taken I think rigidity would have been the end of my happiness. My soul would have deflated like a balloon decades ago. My spirit would have been crushed. Dreaming has kept me happy and hopeful. So … I guess I’ll just stick with it.

Well, I hope you all have a day where your head is in the clouds!!!


A beautiful and imperfect life …

When I pray I don’t ask for a perfect life. But instead, I ask for perfect moments in my rather imperfect life. I do not need an easy life to be happy. I do not need flawlessness. What makes me the happiest are those times when I am with the people I love most, sharing easy conversations, laughs or even stillness, quiet or tears. Those moments when I find myself saying that I wouldn’t trade RIGHT NOW for anything, no matter what situation I may be in. We could be home or on an adventure. At the market or an appointment. We can be going through tough times or good. It doesn’t matter. Opening my heart to accepting that these moments can happen ANYWHERE and under ANY circumstances has allowed me much joy. The genuineness of these moments allow me to feel the closeness that I am blessed to share with others. I appreciate the natural flow of these interactions and the contentment that they bring. They are a reminder that there is a great beauty in just BEING.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you appreciate your beautiful life!!!


Find your joy …

Life doesn’t hand you happiness. Birth was never a guarantee that you would be happy. It meant that you had a chance at it. Having worked in mental health services for a number of years I came to have some understanding of biochemistry and how it affects our brains. I began to believe that if someone can be biochemically depressed then there must be others who can have a propensity to be happy. I honestly think I’m one of those people. I wake up, about 95% of the time, in a good mood, sometimes for absolutely no reason at all. I know that this is a blessing beyond blessings. And TRUST ME, I am very thankful. But the fact still remains that I’m left with my day. And what to do with it. Good or bad I have to strive to keep that happiness alive. Some days are WAY easier than others. Some days are impossible. But if I can EKE OUT even a smidgeon of happy I consider my day a success. Happiness is definitely an inside job that takes a heck of a lot of work to obtain and maintain. But dang, it’s worth it!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you find your joy!!!