Every new year I come up with a new mantra. A simple phrase or one word that I use throughout the year to keep me focused on who I am and what I want to become.
I am not a big resolution maker. I never have been. I just like to keep things ultimately moving in the right direction. Forward. Sure I stumble, just like everyone else, but in the end, once I pick myself back up again, forward is the way I want to go. And by “forward” I mean living a lifestyle that supports me being me and the efforts that I make to become more of the me I was always meant to be. Being genuine is important to me. I am what I am. You get what you see. And I am not going to lie about one messy part of me. I have always liked that about myself. I make no apologies for who I am … and it feels wonderful.
BUT it doesn’t always come easy. It is a lot simpler to become what others expect of you. To fit in. To suppress who you sincerely are so that you feel loved and accepted. On some level, it is pleasant to feel that you are pleasing others. And It certainly can make for an “easier” life in some instances. Yet, this does not bring real happiness. At best, it’s a quick fix.
As for me, I want to be honest. I want to live a candid and unfiltered life. I want people to love and accept me in my flawed authentic state. If people don’t like me, that is fine. I don’t need everyone to like me … just the ones who appreciate my me-ness.
I think it takes time to get to this point in your life. At least requiring enough experience that shows you that being who you are is, quite honestly, the best gift you could ever give yourself. There is comfort, calmness and joy in being able to love yourself in your rawest form. And it is a way of life that I will continue to embrace throughout 2016.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you choose to JUST BE !!!
Today I made it to my last yoga class of 2015 and it left me feeling amazing. Then we headed to the beach for a little California winter fun in the sand, HA!
Well, I hope you all had an utterly enjoyable day!!!
As I took my morning walk this morning I couldn’t help but reflect on 2015.
So. Much. Change.
Most of it good, thankfully. But no less stressful. And if I just focused on the “highlights” (as I usually do), the good parts of all that change, then I can honestly say that 2015 was a great year.
BUT … there were moments when I was experiencing those “good” times when I don’t think I could say that I actually felt “good”. Like the day we left San Francisco after dropping Sid off at school. That was great, but it felt awful. For days!
There were so many events like this that happened in 2015 that I couldn’t count them even if I wanted to. But what I do want to do, is learn from them. And I think I did.
Life is a balancing act. If I chose to focus on the pain I experience I fear that I will lose sight of all the happiness in my life. And I refuse to let that happen. So this is my motivator.
If there is one thing my mother taught me in her short life, it is this: you can find laughter and joy even in your darkest moments. It is her legacy. And it is how I chose to life my life. TRUST ME, it’s not always easy … but it is possible. And if any year proved that to me, it is 2015. In fact, by not feeling the pain that I did, I would have never been able to feel and experience the joys that went along with them … and who am I if I chose to rob myself of that? Not the me I want to be, that’s for sure.
Change. Good or bad. It’s a DOOZEY.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you gladly take the good with the bad!!!
It has been a very long time since we have experienced the cold, wind and rain all in one day around here. But today, we did. And get this! I actually liked it. So weird.
Well, I hope you all had a day that felt like winter!!!
I have mentioned before that I absolutely love that Facebook now allows you to readily see all your past posts for the current day. It’s so sweet to see how much my crew has grown. Revisiting the daily memories is one of my favorite things to do now. I really look forward to it. But this little option has also allowed me to realize things I never had before. For instance, after reading them and spending almost all day in bed yesterday I came to one conclusion: I fall into an after Christmas coma every December 26th. Every year I posted about naps and sleeping off the carnage of Christmas. WHO KNEW?!?!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t feel like you had the life sucked out of you … AGAIN!!!
Boy oh boy. I am wiped the heck out. I feel like a big ole lazy butt slug sloth. I keep finding my way back to bed and dozing off. And I’m not sure if it’s making my situation better or worse. Either way, I blame Christmas, HA!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you sleep off your holiday craziness hangover!!!
This morning as I watched Reese discover all the goodies Santa had left last night, I was reminded that magic is alive and well. We don’t always see it, and sadly we often outgrew our ability to feel it. But every once in a while you have proof. It’s there … and it is beautiful.
Well, I hope you all have a Merry Christmas!!!