I have a feeling I am going to annoy the heck out of her … 

Tonight is Sid’s senior prom! I tend to be a little more editable than she is, but even this is over the top for me. I can’t wait for the “getting ready” part to begin … and that doesn’t happen for HOURS! Ugh. Is it bad I want to wake her up and get going anyway?!?!

OK, fine … I won’t. It probably isn’t a safe idea anyway, HA!

But I gotta say that I may burst before she wakes up! Because … Oh. My. Gosh … I … am … SO … EXCITED!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t annoy the heck out of your daughter!!!

Appreciating every moment of her … 

Tomorrow is Sid’s senior prom. Those three words are crazy loaded for me. Let me put them into REAL terms:

My first born BABY.

LAST dance of her high school career.

SID IS GRADUATING.

For weeks I have been trying to wrap my head around all the feelings that encompass those three sentences.

I can’t.

I oscillate between elation and sobbing like a baby. There is no middle ground here. It is all both wonderful and heartbreaking. It’s a mixed bag of raw emotion.

But I can tell you this: seeing how Sid has tackled this past year has left me in awe. She did it. She dealt with every responsibility she was handed. She not only persevered but she thrived. And as painful as all of this is on some level, I couldn’t be more comforted knowing that she is ready for this next phase of her life.

I have felt lost many times these past few months. I have been trying so hard to hold it all together. To be supportive, understanding and flexible. Taking a step back and letting her do things her way. Allowing her to set some of the rules and, as hard as it was, to let her be the one who knew better. She is after all on the cusp of adulthood. HER adulthood. I think it has done us both good. Her confidence and my confidence in her has soared. Yes indeed … she is ready.

But for now, in these last few days of her high school experience, I will not think of the future. I will not think about the next chapter of her life. I will not think of college. Distance. And change. I will just simply sit back and tearfully watch my beautiful baby girl enjoy the last few days of her childhood …

Well, I hope you all have a day where you appreciate every moment!!!

A sweet start … 

We have a coffee bar of sorts at our house. It’s set up basically for any and all things beverage, HA! Coffee, tea, hot chocolate along with all the things to put in or on them. Various sugars, honey, agave, ground cinnamon, cinnamon sticks, mini marshmallows, amongst other things. I even add a pumpkin spice mixture and crushed candy cane during the holidays. It’s honestly a lot of fun to make coffee at our house!

Anyway, in the morning we are all making some sort of a drink to take with us. So we often help each other in getting them ready. This morning I was excited to try some new chocolate almond milk we bought as a special treat for me to have in my coffee. I really don’t like my coffee sweet. I like a hint of any flavor I put in it. I don’t want it dominated. Which is another reason I love our coffee bar. When I go to a coffee shop I end up being THAT customer with more details on the side of my cup then most directions that come with Lego sets.

So back to our morning. Today Sid, who is normally a tea drinker, decided she wanted to try the chocolate almond milk in some coffee. So there were three coffee cups going this morning. My son George’s, Sid’s and mine. 

You see where I am going with this one yet?

George and Sid like their coffees cooler than mine and with about 67 BAZILLION times more sweetener. And well, somewhere along the line things got a little confusing. In our defense we all had the same looking “to go” cups. And it was clear we were all messed up on whose coffee was actually whose! Sid’s coffee ended up not being sweet at. And George admittedly thought my coffee was his and added more raw sugar to it. 

I think you can all do the math on this one. MY coffee somehow got all the add-ins! Ew.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get a very sweet start!!!

Conked out …

Have you ever had that all of a sudden sleepy feeling? It comes on so freakin fast. One minute you are a fairly normal person walking around like everyone else, and the next, you are virtually unable to move. You suddenly lose your ability to keep your eyes open. Your body decides it no longer wants to be a part of the awake world around it. And it shuts you down. Immediately. No negotiations. You. Are. DONE.

Holy moly, this afternoon I sat down on my couch for about 30 seconds and it was like I melted and became part of the darn piece of furniture. If I didn’t know better I would have thought someone had attached tiny weights to my eyelids and slipped one of those heavy x-ray protection vests on me without me knowing. I was immobilized!

Well, I hope you all had a day where you didn’t CONK OUT!!!

It disappeared … 

I woke up in the middle of the night last, sat straight up in bed and realized I had a throbbing headache. Not many things can jolt me awake like that. So I can only assume that I had a nightmare. Then I went back to sleep and woke up before my alarm … and I still had a headache. Huff.

I hate when I wake up with a headache. One is supposed to go to sleep with a headache and wake up with NO headache. Well, since my bout of meningitis this is not always the case. And it is poopy.

These weirdly acquired sleep headaches end up hanging with me all day. Actually sometimes for days. Caffeine doesn’t help. Neither does ibuprofen. Sleep definitely isn’t a guaranteed cure. They linger until, POOF, they randomly vanish. I have dealt with these for quite a number of years now, so I know how they run their course. Regardless I still try to get rid of them. Truth be told, I usually just end up frustrated on top of having the headache. Again, HUFF.

Today I suffered through with my headache, trying all the usual unsuccessful ways to rid myself of the pain. Of course, nothing worked. It stuck with me ALL DAY. BLAH. But then just as I was winding down tonight, about to plop down on my couch, I realized my headache was gone.

Just. Like. That. Yippie!

Well, I hope you all had a day where something you didn’t like just disappeared!!!

Thankful and free …

Happy Memorial Day everyone!!!

Today we honor the men and women in all branches of the United States Armed Forces who gave their lives for our country. Today I find myself not just thinking of these fallen heroes, but also of their grieving families and loved ones. I can only hope that they find comfort in their loss knowing the gratitude that myself and so many others feel for these heroes. We are truly humbled by their bravery and sacrifice.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you felt thankful and free!!!