Taking the good with the bad …

Being stuck in traffic for a BAZILLION hours. EW. Impromptu visit to Palo Alto. NICE. Flat tire in cow country. DOUBLE EW. Eating Whoopers. YUM. Having your socks suddenly feel wet and squishy because you had a water leak when you were out of town. TRIPLE EW. That feeling of being home again. PERFECT.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you take the good with the bad!!!

A new kind of goodbye … 

Today we officially said goodbye to Sidney. It’s not a final goodbye, of course, those hurt the worst. But it’s also not an “I’ll see you later” kind of goodbye either. This is a goodbye I have never experienced before. It’s a goodbye that assumes so much. Yes, we will see her again, and probably a lot sooner than it feels. But it is a goodbye entwined with change and an incredible amount of raw emotions. Life as we know it is done and gone. We are saying good bye to what we have known as HOME for the past almost 18 years. And we are left to redefine our “normal”. That is what this goodbye means.

And no, this isn’t the worst goodbye in the world, but it is certainly one I am unfamiliar with. I don’t know if I’ll ever really grow to like this kind of goodbye either. It hurts and it is uncomfortable. Truthfully I don’t think I’ve cried this much in a very long time. But as much pain that is involved in this goodbye I would want it no other way. Because this goodbye is also tied to the hopes and dreams of a beautiful young woman who is ready to start a life of her own … and I simply couldn’t be happier for her.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you say a new kind of goodbye!!!

I think they may fall off … 

I love running in San Francisco and I love running hills, so I’m in runner heaven when I am here. However, since breaking my foot I haven’t run up one hill. Not. One. Until today.

I decided last night that I wanted to make my training run today one I wouldn’t soon forget. I wanted to climb to the highest point in San Francisco that I could get to that still stuck within my scheduled training miles.

And I think I found it.

I ran all over the city before I started my trek up California Street. The highest point would cross at Jones Street.

All I can say is that I climbed and climbed. And at one point I’m not so sure I was, what you would call, running. And did I mention the sweat? Good lord. I was dripping.

So I admit I was pretty proud of myself with what I pulled off today. BUT. I kinda forgot how this might all feel later. Um. Yeah. I forgot that.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you didn’t think your legs were going to fall off!!!

A day like no other …

When Sidney was a baby she was born with a full head of hair. Blonde curly locks surrounded her precious little face. She even wore a bow home from the hospital CLIPPED into her hair. When I would hold her in my arms I would often push the hair behind her ears. It became such a comfort to her that when she was tired or hungry she would use it as a sign to tell me, taking her little hand and pushing back the hair around her ears over and over until I scooped her up and held her. I mention all of this because it is one of my fondest memories of our time together.

Today we move Sidney into her dorm room. She is the first to leave. The first to grow up. The first to start a life of her own. I am often at a loss for words. I have no experience to help me through this. I have had to trust my instincts and emotions to be my guides.

I woke up early this morning in an unfamiliar hotel room. It was quite. And dark. I had time to think. To pray. To cry. I looked over at Sidney. Sleeping so soundly. My mind was flooding with emotions. More tears came. And all I could do was move my hand slowly toward her face and gently tucked her hair behind her ear.

Well, I hope you all have a day LIKE NO OTHER!!!


We are ready to go and make the drive to the Bay Area. Sid checks into her dorm tomorrow morning. Ummmm … I don’t remember needing to move
this many boxes and bags into my sorority house when I was in college. NOT. EVEN.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you realize you have a WHOLE LOTTA STUFF!!!