This morning I had breakfast with a dear friend. It’s been far too long since our last meet-up, but we picked up like no time had ever passed. We shared our recent experiences, our thoughts and, of course, our love and support.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you get to catch up!!!
This morning I had coffee and spent time with my close friend Patti. Except she lives in Minnesota and we were texting. But it’s all GOOD! It was early, the house was quiet and we had time for long drawn out texts about life. It was everything I needed. Patti is that honest, going to tell it like it is, type of friend. And I love it. AND HER. She is one of my biggest cheerleaders and will kick me in my tush when I need it. This is also the same woman who talked about me running my first marathon far before I ever ran my first half. She sees things in me, I never can. She has awakened thoughts in my head, I didn’t even know where there. And let me tell you, when this women believes in you, she makes sure that you do too. She is just awesome that way!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you have a friend like mine!!!
One year ago today I drove home in the pouring rain after spending the early evening with my dear friend. It would be just hours before she took her last breath. I will be forever grateful that her husband welcomed me into their home that day and for allowing me to sit and just love on her. Those moments with her will remain some of the most precious I have ever shared with another human being.
Sadly, I am no stranger to moments like these. I was there for both my parents as they passed. As a social worker I sat with many patients and their families as codes were called and time of death was reported. I never took any of those last moments as less than profound. I was honored and still am that God called me to share them with so many beautiful souls. Having been there for both my parents has definitely made their deaths more tolerable-ish. But NONE of these last moments were easy. NONE. The loss of a loved one is awful. REALLY AWFUL. I do think that these experiences, along with God’s grace, has given me a sense of peace about death and dying. There is a natural and spiritual process that I saw, time and time again, that both personally and professionally blew me away. The reconciliation one’s mind, body and soul has with death is nothing short of heroic. And being there for my parents certainly gave me comfort knowing that they were taken care of until the very end. But despite the peace I have and my faith in God, grief is no less painful. It stings. And if you loved BIG, I don’t think that sting EVER goes away. At least it hasn’t for me. Love and loss comes with unfathomable pain. Nothing can ever replace the touch of a loved one who has passed. Their laughter will always be missed. Memories are great, but they are no substitute for the real time we spend with our loved ones. And the passage of time doesn’t seem to make their absence any easier. I wish this world talked more about grief and how it may change but it doesn’t truly go away. Acknowledging that we all hurt and miss someone and admitting that sometimes we all just need a hug could do us some good. I think if we did we might all be kinder and take better care of one another.
Today (and LOTS of other days) I miss my friend. Gut wrenching, to my soul, pain is what I feel. I want her back. I miss her. In my human state I cannot reconcile her death in my brain to make sense. She was too young. Too good. She had too many people who still needed her. I still needed her. Yes, today I am grieving deeply. But I am also celebrating a love and a friendship and a sisterhood that God so generously blessed me with. And even though I don’t feel it was nearly enough time, I couldn’t be more thankful to have shared my life with this incredible woman. My faith reassures me that I will see her again. And when I do, I’m going to give her the biggest tightest hug Heaven has ever seen.
Well, I hope you all have a day where love lives on in your heart!!!
Being an MSW and a parent for over 20 years has not given me an immunity from worry. Heck, sometimes I think they may have made it worse, HA! Trust me when I say that I have seen some ugly horrible situations. So when it comes to my precious babies (yes, I know two of them are adults now) I can’t shake the worry that comes when they are sick, injured or recovering from surgery. I know I should be a pro at this by now. But I’m not. And times like this are when it comes in handy to have an incredible friend. My best friend from high school is one heck of a woman. She is ALWAYS there for me. She is the level headed thinker when I am the wreck. She might be just as worried as I am but she pulls together a strength for me that is grounding. Her love and support has carried me through many times when I have felt scared and alone. And I couldn’t be more thankful for her.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you have someone to rely on!!!
After 49 years I can say one thing for sure. People either understand me … or, they don’t. Good Lordy, I am really thankful for the people who do.
Well, I hope you all have a day where someone truly GETS you!!!
FALL. BREAK. I know I said this yesterday, but I am so excited! We have a lot of fun planned over the next 10 days. It’s going to be like a really LONG Thanksgiving extravaganza! And the best part is that I get to spend all of it with my family and friends. YAY!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you get the party started!!!
I got a special treat today when I received a text from a friend of mine who had moved away. “Do you want to go to lunch?” SAY WHAT?!?! I had no idea that they were even in town! YAY!
Well, I hope you all had a day where you got a big surprise!!!