Cold and hungry (ALWAYS) …

In the midst of the chilliest winter I can EVER remember in California and during a time when I am expecting more from myself physically, I have come up with a new and accurate way of describing my whole being.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you aren’t ALWAYS cold and hungry!!!

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Perfect timing …

If you know me, you know that I hate running in the rain. It goes back to what I have written about before. I spend most of my days preparing to be cold or trying to avoid it altogether. HA! We have had an unusual amount of rain here lately. Today’s forecast was rain again. But I needed to get a run in. I guess if there is one thing that I hate more than running in the rain, it’s running on a treadmill. So I did everything in my power to avoid both this morning. I watched my weather app and the skies like a hawk. The second I thought I could run without being rained on I took off. I don’t know how I planned it so well, but just as I finished my run it started to sprinkle again. Rain followed. PHEW!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you have perfect timing!!!

Happily miserable …

This evening I started hill training again. I ran 7 miles and the first four were at a park near our home. The hills aren’t huge there but there are a lot of them and some of them seem to drag on forever. My first four miles were pretty decent. I wasn’t totally defeated. Yay! But the next three miles were a special kind of ugly. Gaggy ugly. Ew. And my legs are really feeling it right now. I hurt! But you know what? I didn’t care! I am excited to run with a new purpose. It has set my soul on fire and I am LOVING IT … um … despite how horribly awful I feel at the moment. HA!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are happily miserable!!!

Hoping for the best …

I set some running goals for myself yesterday. They are pretty lofty and I can foresee a great deal of fear, failure and disappointment in my future. But that’s OK, because as long as I have breath I have time to accomplish them. And the last time I checked, I was still breathing. HA! But in all seriousness, I figure that time will pass regardless of whether or not I make some crazy unattainable goals for myself. So why not shoot for the stars? Why not take the chance? I have nothing to lose but the regret I will feel for not trying at all. I go into all of this clearly not know what the outcome of it will be. But the eternal optimist in me, simply can’t wait to find out.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you hope for the best!!!

Chasing dreams and finding joy (again) …

I had such a great run this morning. But probably not for the reasons you would think. I wasn’t fast and it wasn’t monumentally long. It didn’t signify the beginning of a training or the end of one. It was a normal run that made me happy. That deep runner happy! I guess I was just so grateful to be out there. Again.

My running over the past two years was not marked with great successes. I had some goals that got me feeling comfortable with running distance again, but for the most part running was for fun and to stay fit. Today as I ran, I started thinking about the running goals that I’ve had in the past. They have seemed so unattainable since I got sick. But today when I was out there I looked back on the past two years and realized that I’m making my way back to the runner I used to be. Slowly (like literally, HA!) but surely, I am regrowing the heart I had for running and seeing my past goals more clearly. I feel THAT passion stirring in my heart and it’s driving me to chase my dreams all so over again. Maybe I’m a glutton for punishment and disappointment but I think I’m ready to put myself out there. Whether I have success or face more failure and setbacks, I really don’t care, because I can’t shake how good it felt being out there today dreaming the way I used to. It was honestly a gift.

Well, I hope you hope you all have a day where you chase your dreams and find your joy (again)!!!

Nothing is impossible …

When I race there are two cities that effect me emotionally like no other cities do. The first is Ventura, California where I started running again. And the second is San Francisco where I ran my first marathon. This weekend I raced in San Francisco and it brought up the usual thoughts and feelings that I am flooded with when I am here. I was reminded of the adversity that I faced getting to my first start line and crossing my first finish line. There were about two decades of my life that I didn’t allow the thoughts of accomplishing those goals to enter my head. I believed that they were unreachable. But one brave moment, a little prayer spoken and a giant leap of faith taken would show me that I was mistaken. That the dreams I had were not gone, they had just been quieted.

My race this weekend wasn’t monumental as far as accomplishments go but it did remind me of something important. Obstacles and setbacks will only derail me from reaching my goals for as long as I allow them to. It’s my choice to give up or to keep chasing my dreams. And if I let them, tough times can be used to motivate me to dream even bigger.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you believe that nothing is impossible!!!

Pack ALL the things …

I have a little RUN-cation planned for this weekend. For some reason I think I need more on shorter trips than I do for longer ones. What the heck is wrong with me?!?!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t pack ALL the things!!!