My heart is full …

Both my “little” girls had a rough day today. Libs is OVER school, testing and college prep. And I don’t blame her! She definitely needed a BIG mama hug when I picked her up from school. My poor Reese fell twice today. She is not clumsy so when she falls it can really upset her. Falling twice had her in tears the second she saw me at the school gate. My poor baby! My heart hurts for both of them them. But today I was also reminded of what all these rough childhood days can lead to. Like seeing both my BIG kids out there adult-ing like champs today. Trust me, Sid and George had their fair share of rough childhood days too but to see them now, you would never know it. They are so ADULT-ISH. HA! I admit that the cuddles and snuggles that this momma gets to give and get from her “Littles” on yucky days like this can’t be beat. But neither can the joy I feel watching my older kids spread their wings and fly. Today reminds me that EVERY season in life has its ups and downs, but if you push through and lean on the ones who love you then there will be brighter days ahead. I also am reminded of how much love I have in my life. Not just to give, but also what I get back. I’m blessed and so incredibly thankful.

Well, I hope you all have a day where your heart is full!!!

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I can’t wait …

This evening my son George is coming home from college after finishing up his sophomore year. Sid is done with her semester next week. I also realized today that Libs and Reese only have three more Fridays left in their school year. The anticipation of summer and all its’ adventures is just so EXCITING!!!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you CAN’T WAIT!!!

Scared out of my mind …

There is one aspect of parenting that I absolutely loathe. It’s just one awful, terrible thing that I will NEVER enjoy. What, you ask, could that ONE thing be? TEACHING MY CHILDREN HOW TO DRIVE. It is NO FUN. NONE. Honestly, it’s terrifying. On soooooo many levels. And none of my children understand why. WHY?!?! Because I find it hard to trust my life with someone who I had to teach to use a spoon! Seriously, I tell them that. And although it makes me laugh every time I say it, there is so much truth in it. So. Much. Truth.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you weren’t scared out of your mind!!!

Thankful, grateful and blessed …

I am heading into this Mother’s Day weekend feeling pretty good so I want to write all of this now. It’s always unknown how the actual day will hit me. I can feel fine going to sleep the night before Mother’s Day and then BAM a blanket of sadness is there in the morning. But right now I feel overwhelmingly blessed and I want to stay focused on what I have, not on what I have lost. I truly have SO much to be thankful for. I’m thankful because I am a mom with the best kids in the world. I am thankful that I have been allowed to share so much of their lives with them. I am thankful I have watched almost three of them now grow to be adults. I absolutely LOVE watching them chase their dreams! And I am thankful that God entrusted me with Reese. I think I needed her just as much as she needed me. Of all the things that I have become in my life, MOTHER, is my favorite. Yes, I lost my mom, and that still hurts after 25 years. But being a mom has healed me so much and has eased my grief in a way that nothing else can. So, I want to give a BIG shout out to Sid, George, Libby and Reese (and, of course, Trevor Sid’s boyfriend too). Thank you. Thank you for taking the broken parts of me and putting me back together again. Thank you for understanding my grief and helping me grow through it. Thank you for readily seeing and honoring grandma’s legacy that has been weaved into each of your lives. You are truly my greatest joy. You are the reason I smile so much and why I laugh so hard. You are my hopes and dreams come true. I couldn’t possibly be me, without all of you. And there is absolutely nothing in this world that I love more than all of you!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel thankful, grateful and blessed!!!

Piled up …

THIS. WEEK. The finale to our incredibly busy Spring. It seems like I’ve waited an eternity for this week to arrive. It’s been a LONG one and I wondered if we would make it with all our responsibilities met. Surprisingly, we did! But we are limping to the finish. I have definitely BEEN THERE, DONE THAT as both a runner and a mom. HA! Saturday I thought WE GOT THIS! But then Sunday afternoon came and I started feeling run down AGAIN. This cold/UGLINESS has been no joke. It has knocked me on my tush a few times. Luckily yesterday I felt a lot better and I got a ton done. I was so thankful because this week is the last INSANELY busy week we have of the school year. It’s Teacher Appreciation Week in our district too and I really try to make it special for Reese’s teachers, her aides and her therapists. It’s a lot of work, but when I think about what they do for her on a daily basis I just want to go overboard in thanking them. On top of that, Libs had a dental appointment yesterday. Which wasn’t a big deal, it’s the rest of her schedule this week that has me a little unnerved. She has two SAT tutoring sessions, an SAT practice test, her AP U.S. History exam and a whole slew of other tests and projects. Most of these things are out of our control. Things are scheduled when they are scheduled and you can’t do much about them, other than do your best to accomplish everything. Reese’s schedule is better than Libs but not by much. She has her usual dance and musical theatre classes this week but she also has two recitals and a Track Meet … all in about 24 hours! Again, how does everything seem to end up at the same time?!?! Oy!

Well, I hope you all have a day where things don’t pile up!!!

Sing your heart out …

It’s been a doozy of a week for us over here, but we are finally at the end of it. It is closing night of Libs’ Spring musical and this is the performance that we will be attending. I CAN’T WAIT! I can’t think of a better way to end this hectic week than by watching Libs perform. It’s one of my most favorite things to do. Libs is incredibly gifted and her passion for music is felt all across the theatre when she is on stage. She is truly in her element up there. As a mom, I don’t think you can experience something more beautiful than watching your child do what they love most. It is THE BEST.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get to sing your heart out!!!

My happy heart …

I took a few days off from writing to focus on the rest of our Spring Break. I got to see ALL FOUR of my kiddos AT THE SAME TIME! It was WONDERFUL! There is truly no other place in the world I’d rather be than with them. And although we all parted ways again yesterday afternoon, I’m still feeling the joy that came from being together.

Well, I hope you all have day where your heart is happy!!!