Meningitis makes you tired. Very. It’s not just during the active part of the virus either. At least not for me. The two times I have had it the fatigue lasted a very long time. The first time it took me about 8 months for my family to really notice a difference. That’s a long time. And I think that must be my standard. Where I felt the heaviest of my fatigue pass in about April this, 6 months after I was diagnosed, my mornings remained very difficult.
I have ALWAYS been a morning person and for most of my life I’ve needed less sleep than is typical. But not since October. And it has been a hard adjustment. Don’t get me wrong, I am very pleased, as are all my doctors, with my recovery. I’ve done exceedingly well. I am beyond grateful. But the struggle I’ve faced waking up has been a real life changer. I decided sometime in May to make peace with it. It wasn’t what I wanted but I had to accept that the old me “morning me” may never return. I needed to forget about the woman who bounced out of bed in the morning before most people in her timezone ever woke up, HA! I needed to be thankful for all the extra hours God had so generously given me in the past to enjoy my day. I needed to move on and embrace the me that was left after surviving another of life’s battles. And I did.
The came June. I’m needing less sleep and rising with a familiar energy that seems like I’ve found a long lost friend. I’m enjoying the silence of a sleeping home again. I’m working out earlier. I’m getting more accomplished throughout my day. I can’t say I’m 100% myself, but I am pretty darn close. And I really couldn’t be happier.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel AWAKE again!!!
Most people who know me would say that I hold it together unusually well during times of stress and change. I deal with things straightforward. What’s on my plate that day, gets my effort and attention. When I was younger I was a worry wart. I was anxious about EVERYTHING. That all faded away. Now I save my efforts for the real stuff and even then I remain pretty calm. And optimistic. It drives my crew crazy sometimes. I think they want to see more “emotion” out of me. Trust me, I am one emotional woman. I’m a crier. I laugh at just about everything. And I’m usually the happiest person in the room. But when it comes to stressful situations or change I just gave up freaking out about them. It’s way easier to just deal with them. In a “matter-of-fact” kind of way I muddle through the tough times. I do make a TON of lists. They tend to keep me focused. Plus they are a great visual for me to measure my progress through the problem or situation I’m currently in the thick of.
Regardless of what I’ve been dealing with, when the day comes when I feel like I am finally passed it, I tend to fall apart. I’ll cry more, sleep like a rock and sometimes I get sick. It’s like my mind and body can finally let their defenses down. It’s funny. Even though this is when I feel like a mess, it’s also a time when I feel my strongest. It’s like earning another battle scar. And it’s a reminder that I am a survivor. Again.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you happily fall apart!!!
Yesterday we went to an Easter Extravaganza at a regional park near our home. And boy oh boy, was it an Extravaganza! If it could be Easter Bunny-ed out, it was. Reese had a blast and even wanted to see the Easter Bunny up-close. This is HUGE for her! She asked Libs to go with her and I got some of the cutest pictures of them. The mom in me was THRILLED! I was a little tearful too. Libs is so good to Reese. All of my kids are, but Libs went out of her way to really make it a special day for Reese. I love these kids of mine! Anyway, I thought the day was a success as it was, but as we were hanging out with the Easter Bunny, what should appear?!?! A BABY BUNNY! A real life furry precious little bunny and it wasn’t even planned! This darling little nugget of fluff just showed up! It topped off our day perfectly!
Well, I hope you all have a surprisingly sweet day!!!
Sleep. Sunlight. Love. Laughter. It’s amazing how some things can make life seem so RIGHT.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel balanced!!!
Smile. Laugh. Nap. Exercise. Read. Learn. Color. Sing. Run. Jump. Skip. Share. Snack. And love unconditionally.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you live like a child again!!!
Some days you do things that you think you can’t. And it feels amazing!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you surprise yourself!!!
Yawn. Squeal. Screech. Boom. Bang. Thud. Yippie!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you finally get to crash!!!