My heart is full …

Both my “little” girls had a rough day today. Libs is OVER school, testing and college prep. And I don’t blame her! She definitely needed a BIG mama hug when I picked her up from school. My poor Reese fell twice today. She is not clumsy so when she falls it can really upset her. Falling twice had her in tears the second she saw me at the school gate. My poor baby! My heart hurts for both of them them. But today I was also reminded of what all these rough childhood days can lead to. Like seeing both my BIG kids out there adult-ing like champs today. Trust me, Sid and George had their fair share of rough childhood days too but to see them now, you would never know it. They are so ADULT-ISH. HA! I admit that the cuddles and snuggles that this momma gets to give and get from her “Littles” on yucky days like this can’t be beat. But neither can the joy I feel watching my older kids spread their wings and fly. Today reminds me that EVERY season in life has its ups and downs, but if you push through and lean on the ones who love you then there will be brighter days ahead. I also am reminded of how much love I have in my life. Not just to give, but also what I get back. I’m blessed and so incredibly thankful.

Well, I hope you all have a day where your heart is full!!!

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A little break …

Life! I got so caught up in it again that I stopped my daily blogging. What seems like a good idea at the time often leaves me feeling NOT RIGHT. This blog keeps me positive. It MAKES me see the hope in each new day. It’s a habit I’ve taken seriously for many years now. So when I’m away, even when I feel I need to be, it just doesn’t feel normal. I can’t deny that writing and hoping have been a part of who I am for most of my life. ALL OF MY LIFE. I guess I just don’t know how to quit it. And that makes me happy.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you take a little break!!!

Rain, rain go away …

I will surprisingly admit that I have loved our gloomy mornings. The sun coming out in the afternoon has been perfect. I’ve been enjoying it because I know that it is typically the precursor to everything I love seasonally. BUT when I saw that rain was in the forecast for later this week I felt offended. HA! This is supposed to be MAY GRAY. You know, that “California season” that happens right before our other season, JUNE GLOOM, and leads into the best season of the year … SUMMER. Rain has no part in this process. None. Zip. Zilch.

Well, I hope you all have a day where RAIN, RAIN, GOES AWAY!!!

My kind of day …

I took a carefree run this morning. Then I enjoyed some much needed yoga. Later I had some creative fun in my kitchen. And I even had some time to sit down and write from my soul. It was THE BEST.

Well, I hope you all had my kind of day!!!

Thankful, grateful and blessed …

I am heading into this Mother’s Day weekend feeling pretty good so I want to write all of this now. It’s always unknown how the actual day will hit me. I can feel fine going to sleep the night before Mother’s Day and then BAM a blanket of sadness is there in the morning. But right now I feel overwhelmingly blessed and I want to stay focused on what I have, not on what I have lost. I truly have SO much to be thankful for. I’m thankful because I am a mom with the best kids in the world. I am thankful that I have been allowed to share so much of their lives with them. I am thankful I have watched almost three of them now grow to be adults. I absolutely LOVE watching them chase their dreams! And I am thankful that God entrusted me with Reese. I think I needed her just as much as she needed me. Of all the things that I have become in my life, MOTHER, is my favorite. Yes, I lost my mom, and that still hurts after 25 years. But being a mom has healed me so much and has eased my grief in a way that nothing else can. So, I want to give a BIG shout out to Sid, George, Libby and Reese (and, of course, Trevor Sid’s boyfriend too). Thank you. Thank you for taking the broken parts of me and putting me back together again. Thank you for understanding my grief and helping me grow through it. Thank you for readily seeing and honoring grandma’s legacy that has been weaved into each of your lives. You are truly my greatest joy. You are the reason I smile so much and why I laugh so hard. You are my hopes and dreams come true. I couldn’t possibly be me, without all of you. And there is absolutely nothing in this world that I love more than all of you!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel thankful, grateful and blessed!!!

Meet me in the middle …

Everywhere you go, you see it, you hear it or you read it. Someone is offended by something. Nothing is free from being potentially offensive. NOTHING. I don’t know what we can blame this on, but it’s REAL and it’s rather annoying. On the flip side of that you see the fallout from the perceived anonymity that social media and interactive websites have given people. You know, the internet trolls who have a false sense of bravery? The ones who will spew out any and all of their garbage thoughts into comment bubbles just because they can. HOW can these two worlds exist at the same time? I just don’t get it. And for the record, I don’t like either. Can’t we stop it already? BOTH ends of the spectrum need to calm the heck down. Let’s have a little grey area! Let’s not be offended by EVERYTHING and let’s not see the need to be offensive just because it’s our “right”. Let’s all DIG DEEP to find those coping skills and let’s decide to choose KINDNESS! It all seems pretty simple to me. But for some reason, it’s not. BIG sigh.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you meet me in the middle!!!

Excited to learn…

I have been certified as a Nutrition and Wellness Consultant for almost four years now. To keep my certification I need to complete 16 Continuing Education Units every two years. Getting and keeps my this certification has been so enjoyable for me. The classes are EVERYTHING that I am interested in and they have fed a passion that developed the summer that I turned 12 years old. Yep, I was only 12 years old when I first found an interest in fitness and nutrition. That’s when I started working out outside of school P.E. classes and started cooking and creating healthy meals in the kitchen. I can thank Richard Simmons for it too! His show sparked this whole way of life for me and I honestly couldn’t be more thankful. This truly has been a life long learning and practicing process for me. Recently I found out that my school was offering a class on the wellness and healing of plants and herbs and I knew I just had to take it. A few months ago I made the commitment to incorporate essential oils into our family’s lifestyle. I have loved it! And I think that this new class will complement all we have been living!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are excited to learn!!!