Libs and here we go again …

Yesterday Libs took the PSAT. She took one last year, in her sophomore year, and did well. We also arranged to have her take an unofficial SAT about two months later just to see how she would do. The test evaluator was pleased to see her score since Libs was technically about 18 months out from taking the official SAT. When the evaluator found out that Libs had forgotten her calculator she changed from “pleased” to “shocked” that Libs did as well as she did.

Telling you all of that is not to brag about my smart kid. Trust me, she IS smart, but it’s because she works so hard. Heck, Libs welcomed all the testing last year just so she could see where she was AT educationally. She’s always thought this way. She is the kid who checks her student portal obsessively after a test or big project. So much so that we had a year when we had to implement a time cutoff to check grades because she would get upset if they weren’t posted. It would ruin her whole evening. That limit really helped her balance fun and work and helped her to see that there is a time (and importance) for both. Anyway, Libs has some lofty college goals and when she started verbalizing them to me we had a long talk (several actually) about what it would take to achieve them. She knows it won’t be easy but she knows what she has to do to make it all happen. When I saw her commitment to her goals and saw how it was all effecting her I went to her counselor, coaches and favorite teachers to let them know what she wants. All of them were on board. Libs has the support of MANY. An army of people who see that she CAN achieve the goals that she has set for herself. As a mom, I couldn’t be more thankful. But I have to say that yesterday has been a stark reminder of times that are soon to change. Again. I’ve been down this road twice before. It is a beautiful road but it does have its’ thorns. The reality of my third baby growing up is creeping in. As much as it all fills my heart with joy, I find (ONCE AGAIN) that my heart can ache at the same time. I have no doubt that when it’s time for Libs to head to college that she will be ready. She will embrace the new life laid before her. She will thrive as an adult. But until then, I will cherish every last childhood moment that I am blessed to share with her.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you see it all happening again!!!

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There when you need it …

Depending on my situation, COURAGE either takes me some time to develop OR it appears instantaneously. Unfortunately, there is no way for me to predict it. Sometimes it comes easy. Sometimes, definitely not! Regardless, I’m glad that it still shows up, and usually, just at the right time.

Well, I hope you all have a day where IT is there when you need IT!!!

Sucked back into reality …

I slept in this morning. For me anyways. I’m sure I know people who will be asleep for HOURS after my sleeping in ended, HA! Once I realized what time it was I was proud of my body for taking what it needed … and pretty darn amazed that no one woke me up! As I laid their basking in the wake of a great night’s sleep, thoughts of everything we have to do today started to creep in. Actually it was more like A TIDAL WAVE OF ADULTHOOD crashing onto my little island of paradise (my bed) and dragging me out to sea like a RIPTIDE OF RESPONSIBILITY. So … I got up. Ugh.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t get sucked back into reality!!!

Keeping it REAL and still seeing the BRIGHT SIDE …

We all have a foundation from which we view our world and the things that happen to us and around us. It can be either negative or positive. I believe, that I am wired to be positive. Yet despite Living in LaLa Land I am also very realistic when it comes to the things that really matter. Heck, it’s the whole reason I started this blog! Sadly, I have found that some people perceive realism as being negative. And I’m sure that it can be for some people. But for me it’s about being in an genuine place, accepting how things are, and changing them if I feel they need to be. I would rather deal with the straight up raw facts of a situation than be left floundering in the UNKNOWN or a CANDY COATED blur of reality … because it is in this HONEST CLARITY that I am still able to find my hope.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you keep it REAL and still see THE BRIGHT SIDE!!!

Bugging …

My oldest daughter Sidney has mastered surprise visits home. Heck, she’s mastered them when we are on travel! This kid is GOOD. Today, however, she is flying home and I know about it. And WOW, in the past few hours I’ve learned a lot of new things. One being, that I am a lot overzealous and probably a teensy weensy annoying. HA! In my excitement I have text Sid TOO MANY times today. Like WAY too many. But it helped me figure out why Sid likes to add the element of surprise to her visits. It keeps me out of her hair!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t bug someone!!!

Changed for the better …

Last night was the 40th Year Celebration of our local Down Syndrome Association. It was wonderful! I have been blessed to serve as the facilitator for one of their support groups for almost 7 years now. The event could not have been more perfect. The venue was lovely, the entertainment was fantastic, the food was tasty and the guests were simply amazing. It was a great evening connecting with old friends (and making some new ones) and celebrating the organization that has so positively and profoundly impacted our lives. What an accomplishment it is to serve a community of people with such dedication and diligence for four decades. It literally brought me to tears last night. I am truly grateful to have shared in DSAOC’s incredible history both as a client and as a facilitator.

When I was pregnant with Reese and found out that she had Down Syndrome I never shed a tear. Reese was going to be who God created her to be and I was the woman He chose to make sure it happened. I promised Reese that I would always be the mommy that she needed me to be. And that I would make sure that she would become who God intended her to be. Even as a social worker, at the time, I wasn’t quite sure what that all would look like. But I knew that I loved my daughter fiercely and that I would somehow figure it all out. DSAOC helped me do exactly that and I simply couldn’t be more thankful. Without a doubt, I would not be the person, or mommy, I am today without their influence on my life.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are changed for the better!!!