I woke up at 3 am all on my own. AGAIN. At 3:30 I realized I wasn’t going to fall back to sleep without a fight. A few years ago I created a little yoga stretch sequence that I can do in bed. It either wakes me up or stretches me out enough so that I can relax and go back to sleep. Today it worked like a charm and I fell back to sleep before 4 am. YAY … ish. I then proceeded to have a crazy dream about my ceiling falling down from a water leak. I woke up in a panic at 4:30 searching my ceiling for any bulging and dripping water. Luckily it was fine. But I was wide awake. AGAIN. I tried my hardest to fall back to sleep but this time it wasn’t happening. So I got up and went on an early morning walk. I surrendered to the idea that God was just going to give me more hours in my day to enjoy. YAY … ish. AGAIN.
Well, I hope you all have a day we’re you rise, stretch, dream, freak out and give in!!!
This morning I had coffee and spent time with my close friend Patti. Except she lives in Minnesota and we were texting. But it’s all GOOD! It was early, the house was quiet and we had time for long drawn out texts about life. It was everything I needed. Patti is that honest, going to tell it like it is, type of friend. And I love it. AND HER. She is one of my biggest cheerleaders and will kick me in my tush when I need it. This is also the same woman who talked about me running my first marathon far before I ever ran my first half. She sees things in me, I never can. She has awakened thoughts in my head, I didn’t even know where there. And let me tell you, when this women believes in you, she makes sure that you do too. She is just awesome that way!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you have a friend like mine!!!
Nine years ago today I literally LIVED the quote “life is what happens to you when you are busy making other plans”. And I also learned that God can be working on giving you a miracle … even when you didn’t know that you need one.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you are changed for the better!!!
Sid left very early this morning to return to school. With George already at school that leaves just Libs and Reese at home. The whole house sounds and feels different. It looks different too. Inside is a stark aftermath of a busy summer. Outside looks almost barren with the lack of cars. The changes are almost disorienting. After coming home from moving Sid into her dorms her freshman year a friend of mine came over to visit me. She said that she was shocked by the energy change in our home. And I couldn’t agree with her more. I was struck at that very moment with a true understanding of what it meant when people say “making your house a home”. I had always lived that way but it was such a different way to experience those feelings. Our house is a living breathing thing because of the souls who both live and visit here. They are the ones who make it a home. And the changes I see and feel around here are because of the love I feel for them. Do I wish that they were always here? Yes. A million times, yes. But I also love the things that this house has become because of their absence. Adulthood comes with new challenges and new sources of joy. This is now the place where they return to share all of that with me. I am comforted knowing that this house is a place that, no matter where life takes them, will always be their home. It is their safe haven in tough times and a place to celebrate all the good. A place that they can always count on to receive unconditional love.
We are considering a big move in the next two years and my thoughts have been drawn to our future house. Where will it be? What will it look like? It’s a bit anxiety provoking with all the unknowns. But then I remember that it really doesn’t matter where the house will be or what it will look like. That house will be filled with everything this house is and more. Undoubtedly our family will grow with marriages and grandchildren. I simply can’t wait for those kind of wonderful changes! Those kind of blessings sure makes all the growing pains that I feel now seem trivial. And when I get past all my wild emotions, deep down I know that our new house will become a home with a familiar story to tell. The story of a family who’s love, history, adventures and traditions make their house a home.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you are down to two!!!
Packed boxes. Full suitcases. Books. Supplies. Plane tickets. And lots and lots of different emotions. We have been HERE before. And I can’t seem to get that song out of my head.
Well, I hope you all have a day where “the times, they are a-changin’”!!!
This morning I found myself looking in the mirror feeling like I was at THAT point. I’ve been THERE before. COUNTLESS times over my 50 years. No, it has nothing to do with my physical appearance. I actually like that! THIS is an INSIDE job. I have written before that I do believe that I have a happier disposition than most. I think it can be attributed to a lot of factors including learned behavior, weather and biochemistry (that’s the clinical social worker in me writing there). That being said, I have seasons in my life where I know that I need to give myself a little pep talk. Or 30. It’s usually during times when I see change looming, life shifting and dreams fading because of the different scenery. This is an uncomfortable time for me, but utterly survivable. Like I said, I have been HERE a lot so I know what it takes keep myself balanced. It’s just not always pleasant. But as the saying goes, “nothing worth having comes easy.”
Well, I hope you all have a day where you find that a little bit of bravery brings you a whole lot of happiness!!!
I am not sure why but I woke up this morning thinking about relationships. I feel extremely blessed to share my life with so many good souls. Even the ones with whom I no longer have contact. I guess those are the people that I thought of the most today. Strangely, no one specific, just the idea that people don’t always stay emotionally close to you. And that’s OK. Sometimes this happens because of bad situations. YUCK. And yet other times it happens because life changes and time passes. Whatever the situation may have been I remain grateful for their influence on me and the lessons (good or bad) that they taught me. Why?!?! Because if, at one time, they were one of “my people” then I saw something special in them … and I am truly thankful that they shared it with me.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you appreciate the ones who come and go!!!