Doing it all …

Chef. Stylist. Chauffeur. Personal assistant. Secretary. Office manager. Pick-up AND delivery girl. Banker. Travel agent. And automobile sales (new and used) consultant. I think that pretty much sums up my last four hours. I have to admit, I’m a little scared to see what my afternoon brings.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you DO IT ALL!!!


Love and gratitude …

I’m feeling incredibly grateful for the good people in my life. Along with these souls I am thankful that many of us are being blessed with some incredible opportunities and experiences that really speak to our hearts. How awesome is that?!?! It feels wonderful to see the people who mean the world to me be so happy and it’s delightful to get to celebrate right along with them. It certainly fills my heart with all the best feels!

Well, I hope you have a day where your heart is filled with love and gratitude!!!

Still JOYFUL …

Every year I come up with a new birthday mantra. A short personal saying that I believe will help me shape the next year of my life. Some years they come quickly to me. Other years they take a bit of time and reflection. This was definitely one of those years that required some thought. And I’ll tell you why.

I don’t think that one simple saying can ever describe how grateful I am to turn 50 years old today. I honestly want to scream it from the roof tops that I MADE IT! There were years that I was skeptical because of my family history. And moments, when my personal health seemed grim, my pain was unbearable and I felt so ill, that I made peace with death. Trust me folks, encephalopathy is no joke. I’ve been in that ugly place where I had to face my own mortality. I have had to surrender to what was happening to me because I was too weak to do anything more. But I have also felt God’s beautiful grace when He blessed me with full healing. TWICE. I know not everyone is that “lucky”. But for some reason I was. I was given more time to live life with the people that I love … and I simply couldn’t be more thankful. Again, “thankful” just doesn’t seem like enough. There is no word that even comes close to describe how it feels to be HERE. To breath, to laugh, to love and to LIVE in this moment is just about the best feeling I have ever known. And I am not going to waste one second of it. No way. No how. God gave me THIS. My life. My story. My miracle. And not being able to describe how I feel about all of this is incredible. I am 50 and life still leaves me speechless. It can still completely consume me with emotion leaving me with no other choice than to just be IN IT and FEEL IT. And if that isn’t the best gift EVER, I just don’t know what is.

So, I guess that leaves me with only one choice for my new birthday mantra. This year I will continue to do what I have always done, to try to see the best in everyone and in every situation. I will continue to carry hope in my heart. And I will celebrate every season, the good and the bad, that I am blessed to experience. Because I know that life is precious. Very, very precious. Every. Single. Moment.

Well, I hope you all have a year where you are STILL JOYFUL!!!

The moment everything fits perfectly …

I had a moment today, while I was driving alone in my car, when I took a deep breath and settled in. No, not into the seat. I mean that I settled into feeling that everything is as it should be. Life doesn’t hand me moments like this all the time. So when I feel them, I certainly want to make sure that I appreciate them.

Well, I hope you all have a day where everything fits perfectly!!!

Happily growing older …

Yesterday I found myself explaining how elated I am to be turning 50. I know that may sound absolutely crazy to a lot people, but if you haven’t figured it out by now, I’m not like most people. I’ve never been one to focus on my age. I’ve actually spent most of my life focused on my mortality. Having a mom who died in her mid forties after battling breast cancer twice taught me that life isn’t so much about longevity as it is the quality of time you have here. But it also scared me A LOT. I honestly never new if I would make it to see 50 especially dealing with meningitis … twice. OY. But despite it all, here I am. Healthy. Fit. And feeling quite blessed. I am honestly surprised I made it, HA! So how can I be anything less that overjoyed? I’m surrounded by incredible friends and family and I’ve been given the most wonderful children in the world. And God has graciously given me more time to share with them than I ever expected.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are happily growing older!!!

Stealing a moment for myself …

In the midst of my crazy life today I managed to take a few minutes to just sit on a bench showered in the perfect mixture of sun and shade. I was waiting at the carwash. I sat down and happily crossed off the last thing on my To-Do List. I enjoyed everything about how I felt in that moment. The relief of being done with all of my errands. The warmth of the sun. The cool breeze that complimented the shade. All of it was wonderful. And I just soaked it in. The best part about all of this is that it came at a place that I would never call relaxing or pleasant. But that is what I find so precious about life. It can surprise you with a treasure in the most unlikely of places. And well, I just love it when that happens.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get to steal a moment for yourself!!!

Our summer story …

It’s (almost) the most WONDERFUL time of the year! Tomorrow is Libs’ and Reese’s last day of school. Thank you SWEET BABY JESUS! It has been a long DOOZY of a school year and these girls need and deserve a break.

Summers look a lot different around here now. With Sid in San Francisco full time and George home from college but working, it’s definitely not the summers of our past. Gone are their days of early childhood. Thankfully, because of Reese, we are still allowed glimpses of them peppered into our every evolving lives. I cherish these moments that keep us connected to those carefree times. I wish that they were as abundant as they were, but I have learned to take what I can get. And trust me, I am grateful. Because even though they occur differently now, they are all still so precious to me. So. So. Precious.

As I look back over the past school year I am reminded of how quickly time passes. People grow out of routines. Life simply changes. Again, I am thankful. And even more so that this family of mine, just seems to roll with it. I am the one who hangs on tighter to the past. Which is silly because, as painful as I find all of this sometimes, I have found that change has never let me down. I have learned that as the pages of time continue to turn, it allows us to write new and adventurous tales into our family history. It is a perspective that has not come easy for me. But I’m continually feeling the comfort it brings me. It is nice to know that nothing is truly ending … it’s just the beginning of another new chapter.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you begin to write your summer story!!!