Yesterday I went with Libs to her end of the school year carnival. It was her last at her elementary school as she is promoting to junior high in less than two weeks.
I was looking forward to the carnival, spending time just her and I. I pictured us hanging out and laughing. Sharing kettle corn and playing games.
But this isn’t how it all went down, not at all.
I’m not sure why it occurred to me but I do know when. As we walked onto the school campus and started the trek across the grass, Libs was in a hurry. As she should have been since she was so excited. She walked ahead of me and told me to walk faster. I realized right then … we wouldn’t be hanging out like I had thought. I asked her, “Libs, you aren’t planning on hanging out with me once we get over there, are you? Her answer … “Nope.”
And so she was off.
I hung out with myself until I ran into a sorority sister of mine from college and we had a nice visit. But from time to time I would catch a glimpse of my Libs with her friends. Her long dark blonde hair lying on her back. Her her sweet smile. Although I wasn’t close enough to hear it, I saw her giggle and laugh. She danced a little to the music. She was so confident and independent. I loved watching her have fun. She wanted me there but didn’t need me there … and that was OK by me. Because as I watched her roam around the carnival I realized what I was looking at … and it took my breath away. There was my precious Libs caught somewhere between the little girl she used to be who still wanted her mommy around and the lovely young lady she is becoming … and I fought back the tears.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you watched someone grow up right before your very eyes!!!