A hand to hold …

As of yesterday afternoon my world finally calmed down. Yay! It’s honestly been a whirlwind. A wave of relaxation literally washed over me after my last meeting yesterday. Last night I realized that I’ve been so busy that I hadn’t really even given much thought to my favorite holiday fast approaching. Even after decorating, confirming with George when he would head home and after booking Sid’s flight it still hadn’t hit me. Talk about distracted!

I had big plans today. Plans to nurture myself. THIS is so important. Seriously, we all need to do more of it. But that’s a topic for another day. My day started early with a wonderful carefree run. I prayed. I thought about Thanksgiving. I thought about how blessed we are and how thankful I am. And then it hit me! ALL of my babies will be home. SOON. I was instantly overcome with emotions. I have not been with all four of my kids at the same time since early August. That’s a first. Again, I don’t like it but I wouldn’t want it any other way. They are off living their lives and becoming who they are meant to be. It’s beautiful.

The picture I posted with this blog is quite a few years old but it’s one of my favorites. I’d be lying if I said that I don’t miss those days. I do. They were days when we were all a bit younger and life wasn’t pulling us in so many different directions. I’m not one to want to turn back time, but I do like to look back. It makes me appreciate our togetherness even more now. I love our family history and the memories that we have made. They are, after all, what paved the way to what is our now. Again, it is beautiful. I know that our NOW might not look like our THEN but it still takes my breath away. These incredible souls are my WHY. I am blessed to be their mom. So so so blessed. And I am grateful that regardless of how much time passes or the distance between them, that they will always have each other to walk through life with. As an only child I wanted this for them. No. I needed this for them. And knowing that they have each other fills this mama’s heart with immeasurable peace and joy.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you have a hand to hold!!!

Advertisements

Anything for family …

Today was quite a day. I have been up since 4:15 this morning and I’m not sure how many miles I’ve driven today, but it was a lot. There was much to work through today and I’m utterly exhausted. But it was all worth it. So, so, so worth it. I’d do it all again, ten times over if need be. And then, another 1000 times more than that.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you would do anything for family!!!

Raring to go …

We had a long day and a late night yesterday. ALL GOOD! We are kicking off September with some traveling fun for Libs and Reese, who’s birthdays are just around the corner. I’ve decorated our suite for the occasion too. We have traveled enough around holidays and special events that this has become my “thing”. My family things I’m a little kooky for doing it, but I love it! I enjoy decorating even when we aren’t at home because it makes it even more festive! Despite being up late I found myself awake insanely early agin. I am above and beyond excited to start our day … but everyone is still asleep. Ugh!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are raring to go!!!

And then there were two …

Sid left very early this morning to return to school. With George already at school that leaves just Libs and Reese at home. The whole house sounds and feels different. It looks different too. Inside is a stark aftermath of a busy summer. Outside looks almost barren with the lack of cars. The changes are almost disorienting. After coming home from moving Sid into her dorms her freshman year a friend of mine came over to visit me. She said that she was shocked by the energy change in our home. And I couldn’t agree with her more. I was struck at that very moment with a true understanding of what it meant when people say “making your house a home”. I had always lived that way but it was such a different way to experience those feelings. Our house is a living breathing thing because of the souls who both live and visit here. They are the ones who make it a home. And the changes I see and feel around here are because of the love I feel for them. Do I wish that they were always here? Yes. A million times, yes. But I also love the things that this house has become because of their absence. Adulthood comes with new challenges and new sources of joy. This is now the place where they return to share all of that with me. I am comforted knowing that this house is a place that, no matter where life takes them, will always be their home. It is their safe haven in tough times and a place to celebrate all the good. A place that they can always count on to receive unconditional love.

We are considering a big move in the next two years and my thoughts have been drawn to our future house. Where will it be? What will it look like? It’s a bit anxiety provoking with all the unknowns. But then I remember that it really doesn’t matter where the house will be or what it will look like. That house will be filled with everything this house is and more. Undoubtedly our family will grow with marriages and grandchildren. I simply can’t wait for those kind of wonderful changes! Those kind of blessings sure makes all the growing pains that I feel now seem trivial. And when I get past all my wild emotions, deep down I know that our new house will become a home with a familiar story to tell. The story of a family who’s love, history, adventures and traditions make their house a home.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are down to two!!!

From here to there with ninjas and donuts …

Today is another travel day for us. My son George began his journey back to college where he will be starting his Sophomore year. He doesn’t need me for much in regards to his drive, but I will fly to meet him later today so that I can help him get settled on “move-in” day. My older daughter Sidney, who goes to college about 50 miles from George, planned on coming home this afternoon for a visit and to help with Libs and Reese. To my surprise she actually showed up at about 4 am. Hearing someone unexpectedly entering your home at that time makes a mom a little ninja-ish. The last time I thought someone was breaking into our home I grabbed a roll of Christmas wrapping paper to beat them with. Like that was a good idea! Good lord. Anyway, I’m not really complaining, because even though it was just for a little while, all of my kids were with me. That’s the best. Oh … and Sid brought home my favorite donuts for breakfast. Donuts and all my kids, yep, I’m a happy mom.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you go from here to there and you bring donuts!!!

The times, they are a-changin’ …

Packed boxes. Full suitcases. Books. Supplies. Plane tickets. And lots and lots of different emotions. We have been HERE before. And I can’t seem to get that song out of my head.

Well, I hope you all have a day where “the times, they are a-changin’”!!!

Time changed much but not us …

I work up early this morning, despite being up way too late. The house was quiet and I began feeling a bit nostalgic. I always do this time of year. With summer break ending and the new school year starting in a few weeks I tend to feel similar to how I do on New Years Eve. It’s my time to reflect and I look back on summers past. With two adult children off to college I feel even more emotional than I normally do. And it all came out this morning! I spent much of my early morning looking through old pictures of my kids. I laughed, I cried and I soaked in every wonderful memory. It is like time stood still for a moment, but also flashed by in an instant. It’s all a blur but I remember almost every second of it. It sort of makes me sad yet I also delight in knowing that so much has changed but not the love we share and the memories we keep. They are our constant and they are our story. And they are what makes us … US. I am comforted in knowing that no amount of time or distance can ever change that.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you can say that time changed much but not us!!!