The same but different …

My son George headed back to his university this morning. I absolutely love it when he is home. Before he graduated from high school we would have daily talks. At some point almost every afternoon I would make my way to his room and plop down on his couch for our talk. Out of all the things that I miss about this kid when he is at school, that is what I miss the most. Sure, we text, talk on the phone and FaceTime, but it’s not the same.

This holiday week was a busy one for us and although George and I found plenty of time to have our talks and hang out, I never made it to the couch where our talks usually took place. We laughed a little bit about my rigidity on this one since I literally talked his ear off all week. He is SO patient with me! HA! Anyway, we did have our talks this week and we spent lots of time together, but there is a part of me that will always remember a simpler time. A time when he was just a knock on the door away. I miss those days, but I am finding that lately I embrace the changes easier knowing how happy he is with his life. THIS could quite possibly be the most comforting thing I’ve felt as a mother. When your child is happy, nothing else seems to matter. At least that is how I feel.

This morning I got up and made one of George’s favorite breakfasts, Eggs Benedict. We were busy trying to get him out the door with packing and loading his car. But I just had to do it. I made my way to his room and plopped down on his couch. We talked briefly, but he completely understood that I needed a moment there. I had to claim a little of our past together in the midst of his beautiful NOW and on the verge of his incredible future. I can accept all the change that has happened and all the change coming, but the mom in me will still steal a glimpse of his childhood every chance I get.

Well, I hope you all have a day that is the same but different!!!

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Overcoming every obstacle …

I’m not sure if this is about bad luck, perseverance, the love I have for my son or just straight up craziness.

Last year Family Weekend, at George’s university, was canceled due to the Northern California Wildfires. Sad, but COMPLETELY understandable!

Flash forward to a few weeks ago …

I was in a sad-missing-my-son kinda funk, so I booked flights for this year’s Family Weekend. But it sort of backfired. It actually made me a little bit sadder because I realized that the weekend it was being held was two months away. UGH. A few weeks later I was trying to remember if I had booked a rental car along with our flights. I SERIOUSLY, couldn’t remember! In searching for that confirmation, I realized that I never made a hotel reservation. THAT would have been a HUGE BUMMER had I not caught that one! Yesterday we got the official Family Weekend registration email but when I went to register the links didn’t work for me. I finally figured THAT out and then realized that I didn’t know George’s Student ID # to complete the registration. I looked EVERYWHERE for it but I still couldn’t find it. So I text George and, after a few hours, he text me back and gave me his ID number. YAY!

I am happy to say that I was FINALLY able to complete all the details of this little trip … um … I think.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you overcome every obstacle!!!

Menacing …

We have a big fire near us right now. Not close enough to cause us any danger but we have had several friends who are in that area that have had to evacuate. Last Fall my son was close by the fires in Northern California. Too close! His university was closed for about two weeks because of it. I was completely unnerved until I knew he was far enough away to be safe. The memories still gives me the chills. This current fire is UGLY. Last I heard it was only 5% contained. It’s over 100 degrees here today too. I can’t imagine what our firefighters are having to endure right now. When I checked our weather this morning it said that we would have a day that was partly cloudy. That was a gross a understatement. Between our hot and humid weather and the fires our skies have been clouded over with black, gray, yellow and brown clouds all day. They have definitely reinforced to the surrounding areas that fire is scary. My prayers go out to all the people who are effected by this fire and to the firefighters who are bravely battling to contain it.

Well, I hope you all have a day that isn’t menacing!!!

A sight for sore eyes …

My son George went to dinner with us last night. He drove over from the university in yucky traffic to spend a few hours with us. He was home about two weeks ago for his Spring Break. But honestly, it doesn’t matter if I have recently seen my college kids. I miss them so quickly after a visit it’s insane! And because George knows that, he made sure he saw us. What a great kid!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you see a sight for sore eyes!!!

It’s just not the same …

Yesterday my son George headed back to his university ready to start the Spring semester. Again, I don’t do any of this “letting go” thing gracefully. I am sad he left. I love my kids and every second I get to spend with them is a gift. George is such a presence in our home, especially in the morning. He wakes up in a great mood. He always greets me with a cheerful “good morning, Mom” and an “I love you”. He usually has me laughing within minutes. He has such a sweet and genuine smile. His heart, GOLD. And this morning, I am missing all of it.

Well, I hope you all don’t have a day that just isn’t the same!!!

Focusing on the good …

The Northern California fires are horrible. And that is an understatement. After a few days in a hotel in San Francisco we made the decision to fly my son, George, home yesterday. His school has been completely shut down. Evacuations weren’t mandatory but the university wasn’t taking any chances. And I can utterly appreciate that. So last night, my son arrived home safe and sound. I couldn’t be happier to see him. The past few days have been filled with images of destruction and feelings of uncertainty. It’s all still looming over us. The worry is there. But seeing him and enjoying time with him has certainly been a nice distraction.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you focused on the good!!!

Feeling nostalgic …

Sid took an early train to see her boyfriend this morning. I drove her to the train station. On my way back I opted for a different route home. I took me by California State University, Fullerton. My alma mater. One of them anyway. I didn’t realize it but this is graduation weekend. Despite being early there were many people arriving. Some walking. Many in their caps and gowns. It really took me back. I remember my graduation days from both Fullerton and California State University, Long Beach like they were yesterday. Such great days, filled with so much excitement, reflection and hope! I know I’m feeling more emotional these days with George’s high school graduation just around the corner. So I’ll just dismiss my crying watching perfect strangers cross the street.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel nostalgic!!!