Ahead of the game …

I have been known to drive my crew to school wearing my pajamas. Heck, I even have fun joking around about having to get out of the car in them. HA! Usually my first "pajama sighting" is at least a few weeks into school. Around that 6 week mark, life gets hard and … well … I start wishing for summer again. Or at least a long weekend. Anyway, today was Libs first day of Hell Week at tennis. I didn't sleep well last night. I have WAY too much on my mind and I had an iced coffee WAY too late in the day. So when my alarm went off this morning it was ugly. I dragged my lifeless body out of bed and made sure Libs was up. Then I proceeded to pee (come on, we all do it), brush my teeth and then I curled up on the couch throwing out verbal "help" to keep Libs on time. When it came time to leave, I rolled off the couch, took a quick glance at my hair in the mirror (yikes), grabbed my keys and got out the door. There is NO LATE during Hell Week and if you aren't 15 minutes early you ARE late. So needless to say Libs was early. REALLY early. She was the first one to arrive and that has to make her look good in the coachs' eyes. Right?!?! So between Libs punctuality and me getting an early start on my jammie wearing school drop-offs I'd say that we are both off to a great start. I think.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are ahead of the game!!!

Spinning …

We have had a busy summer. It's been fun but we have been on the go since George's graduation day in June. It's honestly been a whirlwind. The past few days we have had at home we spent catching up on life. And by life I mean laundry, HA! Well, that was part of it anyway. But we also had even more running around to do. Ugh. Next week Sid is moving into her new house and George will be moving into his dorm. So we had lots of shopping and packing that needed to be done this week. Not to mention Libs and Reese! Luckily they have a few more weeks of summer left so I still have some time to get their back-to-school things in order. Thank. God.

Last night George and I finished the last of our errands to get him ready for college. I felt so relieved! So relieved that I think my body shut down when I went to sleep last night. I woke up in the same position I fell asleep in. Ouch. And I was rudely reminded by my body that I drank no water yesterday. How is that even possible?!?! Busy anxious mom-ness is how that is possible! Needless to say I was so dizzy when I woke up that I could hardly walk. I guess my body has had quite enough of this summer schedule and has decided it's time for me to rest. OK, fine … I'll reluctantly listen.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you aren't spinning!!!

Just sitting here …

Have you ever been so tired (lazy) that even the mere thought of getting up from your spot was exhausting? Like the only thing you want more than your next breath of fresh air, is the power to WILL your bed to you? OK, maybe I’m being a little dramatic but you get my point. I don’t want to move.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you just sit there!!!

I almost attacked a ferocious fake reindeer … 

G3 has a Zero Period so he needs to be at school before 7 a.m. I guess I was particularly tired this morning when it came time for him to leave for school. G3 opened our front door and as I glanced outside I saw what appeared to be a pretty large animal directly across the street from us. It was standing behind our neighbor’s tree. It didn’t look like a dog, its’ neck was too long and it was taller than most dogs. Since we get coyotes around here, I immediately assumed it was an over-grown coyote, or worse … A WOLF! I’ll be honest, I don’t know if wolves are more dangerous than coyotes. All I knew was that whatever it was had to be ravenousnessly hungry.

My first thought?!?! Save my precious baby boy (he’s 17 and way bigger than me now) from this beast that surely meant him harm! So I booked it outside (in my pink reindeer jammies) ready to do battle with this savage animal! Armed with my small black purse I was ready to beat it to death if it moved toward my helpless little boy (he’s a 3rd Degree Black Belt in Tae Kwon Do). As I ran down our walkway to the driveway, where my son was now standing, I never took my eyes off that wild monster … which turned out to be a really good thing. As I got closer to this cold-blooded killer I was able to see it much clearer than when I was in my house. As I began to squint at it discerningly, my pace slowed, my heart calmed and I realized I really didn’t have anything to worry about. Except maybe the judgement of my neighbors.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t almost ATTACK your neighbor’s ferocious fake Christmas reindeer!!!

  

I refuse to give up …

I’m having a really tired day. Ugh. Granted, I’ve been tired for over six weeks now. But holy moly, I am in no way use to it. Then I get these little gems, days when the fatigue feels magnified by a BAZILLION. This recovery is long. I know it. Heck, I’ve survived it once already in my life. I have a choice, I can either lay on the couch all day OR I can function and LIVE tired. Trust me, when those are your only two options, it kinda sucks. But I refuse to surrender to lifelessness. The fire inside me won’t allow it. I am determined to get stronger. Even my doctor said that the more I do, the stronger I will become. In reason, of course. He said he has no doubt that I will eventually return to my old active self. If that’s not a motivator to get off my couch and give it my best effort every day, I don’t know what is. As hard aS it is to not just lay down and sleep all day, I won’t abandon the me I used to be. I can’t. She’s still in me. I feel her. And, boy oh boy, is she pissed! She wants to be strong again. She wants to be free. She wants to become more of the woman she was meant to be. And so I choose to press on … and yawn. A LOT.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you refuse to give up!!!

Getting some rest (NOT) … 

Soooo my new Fitbit tracks sleep. I’ll be honest the first week it seemed to be a little generous on the hours it tracked me sleeping. Then I saw that it had two sleep tracking settings. “Normal” and “Sensitive”. And I thought, “Ah ha!” I don’t do anything NORMAL so I figured let’s give the “sensitive” tracking a whirl. Low and behold, it picked up EXACTLY how I sleep. In my 7 hour and 12 minute “sleep schedule” I was actually only asleep for 3 hours and 33 minutes. Three hours and 39 minutes I was awake and/or restless. GOOD LORDY. Speaks volumes, doesn’t it?!?! And people wonder why I am a little nutty.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get some rest!!!