Off my game …

I have not been myself today. Yesterday I ran my 20-miler and early this morning I was jolted out of bed by an earthquake. Long runs make make me tired and earthquakes make me a crazy anxious person. Not a good combo. After I checked on Libs and Reese I found myself consumed with race day anxiety and some intense animalistic hunger. Then came a dull headache. It was also a day filled with uncompleted tasks. I started them, but I certainly didn’t finish them. I’m not sure if I could characterize my day as BAD. But I can say that playing a normally functioning human today has been ROUGH.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you aren’t off your game!!!


Coffee please …

I got so spend some time with two of my sorority sisters last night. It was VERY much needed, LONG overdue and a GREAT time. But we all pushed it. We were out LATE. And Sunday morning came early. TOO early.

Well, I hope you all have a day where someone kindly brings you coffee!!!

Wide awake …

Before getting sick I was an early riser. No, I mean REALLY early. I woke up before my alarm usually about 5 am, easy peasy. And FULL of energy. That has NOT been the case for 16 months now. Don’t get me wrong, the nagging fatigue is gone. THANK GOD. But waking up is a whole different ballgame for me now. I wake up groggy. No more bouncing out of bed. You’d think I’d be used to it by now. NOPE. After decades of being one way, you don’t forget it … NOT EVER. Anyway, that being said, I’m INCREDIBLY thankful for the recovery I’ve had thus far and for all the neurological bullets I dodged. I just recently had a physical and my doctor told me again how lucky I was to have had no lingering issues from the encephalopathy. She also seemed very hopeful that I’m going to one day feel FULLY like myself again. Needless to say I left that appointment feeling GREAT!

When you are in the midst of recovery and healing you don’t always feel or see the progress you have made. I can now that so much time has passed but some things still really bother me. Like the difficulty I have waking up. It’s incredibly frustrating to say the least. But as soon as I get frustrated I remind myself of how far I have come and of what could have been (EEEEK). And now I have the words my doctor said to me. I’m going to CLING to her hopefulness. And let life unfold.

This morning I received a little gift. I woke up at 4 am. All on my own. And feeling like me again. This has happened a few times now. I have learned that these mornings don’t last. Tomorrow or the next day will likely be a different story. But that’s OK. I enjoy having a glimpse of the old me. No matter how fleeting these mornings may be I couldn’t be more grateful to still have them.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are WIDE AWAKE!!!

Thanks, I needed that …

Sleep sleep sleep. I got over 9 HOURS of sleep last night. God and the Universe must have had a hand in this because this is the longest I’ve slept in months. And it felt WONDERFUL. I’m sure my family will appreciate it too, HA!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you say “thanks, I needed that”!