A BIG SIGH of relief …

I woke up this morning feeling something I hadn’t in a very long time. RELAXED. Sidney has been home from college for about a month now. George graduated from high school last night. Libs and Reese have their last day of school today. Our absolutely exhausting, unpredictable, and stressful school year is OVER. There were many times when I wondered if we were going to make it out of this one unscathed by our circumstances. It was a tough one. This past week one particularly memory has come to mind time and time again.

I was just recently out of the hospital. On top of everything else my vision was terrible even with my glasses on. Between the medications and being so sick everything was just a blur. But there George and I were, sitting in front of his computer finishing up his college applications. I remember thinking HOW? How exactly are we going to get from HERE to THERE? And what if we didn’t? The worry was incredible. So much “hinged on” those applications. Too much to even imagine the loss. He needed my guidance. He needed my help. No excuse was good enough. It all had to get done and it had to get done then. His future wasn’t going to wait for me to feel better and for me to see clearly again. So we did what we had to do and got them done despite our obstacles.

And here we are. Many months later. Sid home for summer and soon to be entering her Junior year in college. Libs with a Distinguished Scholar Award for keeping a 4.0 her Freshman year. My Reese thriving and ready to take on 2nd Grade. And George, a high school graduate leaving for college in just two short months. I can’t believe we got from THERE to HERE. Their resilience amazes me. They persisted and it all paid off. We made it. THEY made it.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you breathe a BIG SIGH of relief!!!

Over it …

I’m not sure how many people are feeling like I am, but I’m just going to throw this out there … ENOUGH ALREADY with the MAY GRAY and the DRAGGING of the final month of the school year! I. Want. SUMMER.

There. Now I feel better.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are OVER IT!!!

Appreciating the ones I Love …

When I look back at all the changes that have happened over the past year I almost can’t believe it. Sid graduating, starting college and moving away. G3 starting to drive and getting ready for his senior year. All his volunteer work. Our “College Tour Palooza”. Libs and her busy social life. All of her performances and all the hard work she put in for her video production class. Her acceptance into the Digital Media Arts Academy that she will begin next year when she starts high school. And my precious Ree. She started kindergarden and became the most adorable yogi EVER. She made huge developmental strides despite being sick off and on for so long. She has grown into the most delightful and loving little girl. And she discovered Barbie, HA! And let’s not forget Reese’s and Sid’s surgeries.

Wow. What a year this crew has had.

It wasn’t all good, but it certainly wasn’t all bad. It was just different. A year marked with growth and change. Struggles and victories. Gains and losses. It was life … and living.

As this school year comes to a close I can’t help but think of what is to come. Undoubtedly more change. My children are getting older. My baby will be 7. That is a hard one to swallow. But I am in awe of this life we have made. Of the years that have passed so sneakily. I remember like it was yesterday being pregnant with each of them. Feeling their movement in my belly. Time flies. But that’s OKAY, because our time together, although not always perfect, has been perfectly us.

My heart cannot contain the amount of love I have for my children. No words can adequately describe it. And I am so thankful that I absolutely adore who they have all become. I am truly blessed to have been chosen to be their mother. To walk through life with them is simply my greatest joy.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you appreciate the ones you love!!!

On top of things …

First day of school and I appear to have it all together! By 5:30 p.m. backpacks and lunch box were cleaned out. New school year “agreements” were signed. Dinner was done. Dishes were washing in the dishwasher. And my Ree was bathed, in her jammies and I had her lunch made for tomorrow. I can’t tell you how happy I am with myself! Now if I can just keep this momentum up for the next 179 school days.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you were on top of things!!!

Roar …

My H-Crew goes back to school next Tuesday … BIG SIGH. Yes, I am one of THOSE parents who actually gets sad at even the thought of them returning to school. And now … the reality of it all, is here.

I promise myself every year that I WILL NOT get upset, but I can’t help it. I love my kids and our time together always makes me happy … well … when they aren’t driving me nutso, HA!

I was doing pretty good this year, trying to get caught up in their excitement of going back to school. The busyness of registration, booster meetings and school shopping helped. Aside from few more purchases they are ready to start the new school year. So, today I set aside to finish up back to school chores. I finished washing the rest of their new school clothes. I labeled backpacks and gym clothes. I looked up some new recipes for easy weeknight dinners and got cookie requests. I always start the year off baking a batch of cookies each week for them to put in their lunches. And I basically prepared our house for the craziness that will begin in just 6 days.

… and that’s when it all started to make me … sad. The actual moment that pushed me over from excited to sad was when I was hanging up Reese’s new shirt that we bought for her to wear on the first day of school. On it, is just one word. But it embodies everything I want for them this school year … and life.

I want them to grab life by the collar and loudly and boldly proclaim:

I AM NOT EVER GIVING UP!

I WILL NEVER BE BROKEN OR BECOME BITTER!

…and NOTHING AND NO ONE WILL EVER STOP ME FROM MAKING MY DREAMS COME TRUE!

… yeah … it was at that moment when I got a little sad … but it was also the same moment when I became completely fired up to see them conquer their worlds.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you ROAR!!!