The heart of the matter …

I am a self-professed self-nurturing advocate. Yet, there are so many parts of me that seem to get neglected. Ugh. But isn’t that a truth for ALL OF US?!?! Despite knowing how important it is to take care of ourselves and to feed our souls, life and responsibilities (and some people) make us feel that those parts of us aren’t a priority. I am not sure of how that seductive process works, but it definitely sneaks it’s way into my daily routine. Even at my age (will I ever learn?), I know that I personally need to be more aware of this and how it can greatly effect my peace of mind and overall happiness.

When I look back on the young girl that I was in junior high, those genuine deep-rooted parts of me have not changed. I absolutely love that about myself too. I am and have always been a God-seeker, a family-lover, a rescuer, a writer, a foodie and a fitness junky! Those are the parts of me that aren’t going anywhere. They are the God-infused characteristics that have stuck with me for a lifetime. And I know that if I want to continue to be the best version of myself, so that I can be everything I need to be and want to be for the people that I love, then I really need to make sure that I nurture those special parts of me. After all, if God gave me all those passions, then I guess it’s part of His plan for me. And THAT is always a good thing.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get back to the heart of the matter!!!

A walk in the park … 

I took a stroll with Libs earlier this evening. Darn I love this kid. She is so funny and silly. I genuinely love spending time with her and talking.

She is at the end 

 of her first year of junior high. Boy oh boy, isn’t that a tough time even for the most well adjusted kids?!?! Don’t get me wrong, Libs isn’t having any trouble. But it’s just such a tender time. She is not quite enough of a little child to need her mommy but not quite old enough to really fake like she doesn’t, HA!


Anyway, today we had a great talk. We discussed making mistakes and how to steer clear of the really big ones. We talked about how to have a balanced life. We came up with ways to negate peer pressure. And we thought of different ways to cope with stress. She is such an open and receptive kid. She is sensitive and still so formidable. I just wanted to check in with her before the teenage stuff hits. I wanted to ensure she has a standard mode of operation to fall back on even before she actually needs one.

Darn this kid has my heart … and I would do just about anything to protect hers.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you had a nice walk in the park!!!

  

Roar …

My H-Crew goes back to school next Tuesday … BIG SIGH. Yes, I am one of THOSE parents who actually gets sad at even the thought of them returning to school. And now … the reality of it all, is here.

I promise myself every year that I WILL NOT get upset, but I can’t help it. I love my kids and our time together always makes me happy … well … when they aren’t driving me nutso, HA!

I was doing pretty good this year, trying to get caught up in their excitement of going back to school. The busyness of registration, booster meetings and school shopping helped. Aside from few more purchases they are ready to start the new school year. So, today I set aside to finish up back to school chores. I finished washing the rest of their new school clothes. I labeled backpacks and gym clothes. I looked up some new recipes for easy weeknight dinners and got cookie requests. I always start the year off baking a batch of cookies each week for them to put in their lunches. And I basically prepared our house for the craziness that will begin in just 6 days.

… and that’s when it all started to make me … sad. The actual moment that pushed me over from excited to sad was when I was hanging up Reese’s new shirt that we bought for her to wear on the first day of school. On it, is just one word. But it embodies everything I want for them this school year … and life.

I want them to grab life by the collar and loudly and boldly proclaim:

I AM NOT EVER GIVING UP!

I WILL NEVER BE BROKEN OR BECOME BITTER!

…and NOTHING AND NO ONE WILL EVER STOP ME FROM MAKING MY DREAMS COME TRUE!

… yeah … it was at that moment when I got a little sad … but it was also the same moment when I became completely fired up to see them conquer their worlds.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you ROAR!!!

I wouldn’t change a thing …

Summer is OFFICIALLY here.

This morning I watched my Libs promote from an Elementary School-er to a Junior Higher. Sid and G3 also had their last day of school. Family and friends came to celebrate. And I even got a two hour nap 🙂

Today was simple … and perfect. Days like these remind me of how wonderful life can be when you share it with the ones you love.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you wouldn’t change a thing!!!

She ditched me … and I would have it no other way …

Yesterday I went with Libs to her end of the school year carnival. It was her last at her elementary school as she is promoting to junior high in less than two weeks.

I was looking forward to the carnival, spending time just her and I. I pictured us hanging out and laughing. Sharing kettle corn and playing games.

But this isn’t how it all went down, not at all.

I’m not sure why it occurred to me but I do know when. As we walked onto the school campus and started the trek across the grass, Libs was in a hurry. As she should have been since she was so excited. She walked ahead of me and told me to walk faster. I realized right then … we wouldn’t be hanging out like I had thought. I asked her, “Libs, you aren’t planning on hanging out with me once we get over there, are you? Her answer … “Nope.”

And so she was off.

I hung out with myself until I ran into a sorority sister of mine from college and we had a nice visit. But from time to time I would catch a glimpse of my Libs with her friends. Her long dark blonde hair lying on her back. Her her sweet smile. Although I wasn’t close enough to hear it, I saw her giggle and laugh. She danced a little to the music. She was so confident and independent. I loved watching her have fun. She wanted me there but didn’t need me there … and that was OK by me. Because as I watched her roam around the carnival I realized what I was looking at … and it took my breath away. There was my precious Libs caught somewhere between the little girl she used to be who still wanted her mommy around and the lovely young lady she is becoming … and I fought back the tears.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you watched someone grow up right before your very eyes!!!