It’s official. After 20 months my sleep is FINALLY back to normal. I’m back to feeling that seven hours is like “sleeping in”. It’s wonderful! The need for so much sleep was honestly the hardest thing I’ve ever physically experienced. Waking up feeling so groggy was brutal! But now I feel rested again when I wake up and I have my energy back. Every once in a while I have a bout of fatigue that is a strong reminder of what my body has been through. But on the eve of turning 50 years old, I’m happy to say that I don’t feel much different than I did turning 40. Which strangely, was also a pivotal time of recovery from my first bout meningitis. I’ll be honest this is NOT how I want to celebrate turning a new decade ever again. TWO WAS ENOUGH. But I guess as long as I come around to my old self … um, my younger self (HA!) … how can I really complain?
Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel like you finally bounced back!!!
This morning’s laughter started early here. Which is always a good way to begin the day! To be honest, I was so sleepy when I woke up that I’m not really sure what happened was all that funny. But it certainly got me going, so I’ll take it.
Despite waking up before my alarm clock went off this morning I just laid in my bed until the last possible minute. Libs usually gets herself up, but I always make sure she is up by a certain time. She has a range of when she likes to get up. But because I didn’t want to get up, I pushed it to the very end.
Now, I have been known to wake my kids up in silly ways, with songs, etc. but today was not one of those days. I had one job to do in my groggy state and that was to tell Libs what time it was and that she needed to get up and start getting ready for school. No fun or funniness planned just sharing some pertinent information. And that is exactly what I did … and then I immediately started laughing.
LIBBY LU, IT’S 6:42!
OK, maybe it’s not that funny to randomly find yourself rhyming when you are wide awake and it’s the middle of the day. But it sure was when I could hardly keep my eyes open! Libs just looked at me and shook her head. I’m sure deep down she thinks I waited until that exact time, just so I could say it that way. But I promise, I didn’t! I guess after 17 years of waking my kids up with laughter, being funny just seems to come naturally.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you sound like a line in a Dr. Seuss book!!!
Before getting sick I was an early riser. No, I mean REALLY early. I woke up before my alarm usually about 5 am, easy peasy. And FULL of energy. That has NOT been the case for 16 months now. Don’t get me wrong, the nagging fatigue is gone. THANK GOD. But waking up is a whole different ballgame for me now. I wake up groggy. No more bouncing out of bed. You’d think I’d be used to it by now. NOPE. After decades of being one way, you don’t forget it … NOT EVER. Anyway, that being said, I’m INCREDIBLY thankful for the recovery I’ve had thus far and for all the neurological bullets I dodged. I just recently had a physical and my doctor told me again how lucky I was to have had no lingering issues from the encephalopathy. She also seemed very hopeful that I’m going to one day feel FULLY like myself again. Needless to say I left that appointment feeling GREAT!
When you are in the midst of recovery and healing you don’t always feel or see the progress you have made. I can now that so much time has passed but some things still really bother me. Like the difficulty I have waking up. It’s incredibly frustrating to say the least. But as soon as I get frustrated I remind myself of how far I have come and of what could have been (EEEEK). And now I have the words my doctor said to me. I’m going to CLING to her hopefulness. And let life unfold.
This morning I received a little gift. I woke up at 4 am. All on my own. And feeling like me again. This has happened a few times now. I have learned that these mornings don’t last. Tomorrow or the next day will likely be a different story. But that’s OK. I enjoy having a glimpse of the old me. No matter how fleeting these mornings may be I couldn’t be more grateful to still have them.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you are WIDE AWAKE!!!