Libs and here we go again …

Yesterday Libs took the PSAT. She took one last year, in her sophomore year, and did well. We also arranged to have her take an unofficial SAT about two months later just to see how she would do. The test evaluator was pleased to see her score since Libs was technically about 18 months out from taking the official SAT. When the evaluator found out that Libs had forgotten her calculator she changed from “pleased” to “shocked” that Libs did as well as she did.

Telling you all of that is not to brag about my smart kid. Trust me, she IS smart, but it’s because she works so hard. Heck, Libs welcomed all the testing last year just so she could see where she was AT educationally. She’s always thought this way. She is the kid who checks her student portal obsessively after a test or big project. So much so that we had a year when we had to implement a time cutoff to check grades because she would get upset if they weren’t posted. It would ruin her whole evening. That limit really helped her balance fun and work and helped her to see that there is a time (and importance) for both. Anyway, Libs has some lofty college goals and when she started verbalizing them to me we had a long talk (several actually) about what it would take to achieve them. She knows it won’t be easy but she knows what she has to do to make it all happen. When I saw her commitment to her goals and saw how it was all effecting her I went to her counselor, coaches and favorite teachers to let them know what she wants. All of them were on board. Libs has the support of MANY. An army of people who see that she CAN achieve the goals that she has set for herself. As a mom, I couldn’t be more thankful. But I have to say that yesterday has been a stark reminder of times that are soon to change. Again. I’ve been down this road twice before. It is a beautiful road but it does have its’ thorns. The reality of my third baby growing up is creeping in. As much as it all fills my heart with joy, I find (ONCE AGAIN) that my heart can ache at the same time. I have no doubt that when it’s time for Libs to head to college that she will be ready. She will embrace the new life laid before her. She will thrive as an adult. But until then, I will cherish every last childhood moment that I am blessed to share with her.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you see it all happening again!!!


Rise to the occasion …

There is NOTHING like seeing my children overcome adversity and succeed despite the odds stacked against. To watch them persevere mentally and physically, amidst self doubt, just fills this mama’s heart with pride. And seeing them come to the realization that taking a chance on themselves is worth it, will ALWAYS fill my heart with joy. I can attest, when your child realizes that they ARE capable of reaching goals and living out their dreams, it is truly a beautiful moment.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you rose to the occasion!!!

Go for it …

What makes us not pursue our heart’s desire? I know the answers are vast on this one. Fear. Guilt. Time. Obligations. Money. I am sure that most of us can come up with a list a mile long. I know I have! And I’d say that probably most are valid and reasonable excuses. Reasons that make our decision, to not chase our dreams, absolutely understandable. BUT, if I’ve leaned one thing in my five decades it’s this … every time I’ve been given one teeny tiny arrow pointing me in the direction of my goals, it has been a good enough reason to make them a priority. And ultimately it has all brought me a lot of joy.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you GO FOR IT!!!

Do nothing …

I crack myself up. Every Sunday I wake up with the same goal. But after decades of having children I have come to realize it’s absolutely impossible to achieve. But hey, I’m no quitter.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get to do NOTHING!!!

Head in the clouds …

I’ve always been a dreamer. I think it is one of my biggest flaws and one of my greatest blessings. Even when I was a young woman filled with anxiety I still managed to dream BIG. Now that I’m older many of my anxieties have fallen by the wayside which leaves lots of room for dreaming. I think that by allowing myself to dream I have had a better stronghold on hope. It really has worked for me in just about every situation I’ve been in. Even the really ugly ones. I think the ability to dream has also allowed me to maintain a certain measure of flexibility in my thoughts. If one thing doesn’t work out exactly the way I had hoped it can be easily modified. My thinking can be changed, and before I even realize it a new dream is in place. Some things have to change to bring us to the right place in our lives or to help us reach our goals, right?!?! From the bottom of my heart I believe that both God and the universe direct me in the way I need to go. I find so much comfort in that. Rigidity definitely has no place in this dreamer’s life. With all the twists and turns my life has taken I think rigidity would have been the end of my happiness. My soul would have deflated like a balloon decades ago. My spirit would have been crushed. Dreaming has kept me happy and hopeful. So … I guess I’ll just stick with it.

Well, I hope you all have a day where your head is in the clouds!!!

Exactly where I want to be … 

A few months ago I set several goals for myself regarding my training for the Twin Cities Marathon I will be running in October. Actually they were goals I wanted to attain prior to when my actual training began. A pre-training of sorts. I coined it, “Getting ready to get ready.”

I gave myself two months to accomplish all the goals, which seemed a little lofty but I went for it anyway. I wanted to lose a few pounds. I wanted to be able to run over 13.1 miles without walking or stopping. I wanted to have an easy run pace CONSISTENTLY at 9:30/mile and a moderate run pace of 9:15/mile. A quarter mile interval pace under 8:00/mile. And for my long runs to include at least 5 miles of hill training.

All that … just to get ready to start training.

Well … I DID IT!

Next Monday will technically begin my 20-week training for Twin Cities. I am already running more miles than the training outlines. So I will modify my schedule until my mileage ability coincides with the training, which will be some time in August.

Thankfully I feel like all of this just gives me more time to get … BETTER … STRONGER … FASTER … and more capable of making my dreams come true. And THAT makes me a very HAPPY runner girl!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you find yourself exactly where I want to be!!!