Last night, after a very long and very exciting day (I’ll explain why in a later blog), I somehow got Reese into bed early. This is good because she has her hernia repair surgery tomorrow and I want her going into it as strong as possible. Sleep is so important leading up to something like this and it will be a huge part of how her little body will recover after. But, I guess her mama’s body was needing that sleep too.
Last night I laid down with Reese. We said her prayers and snuggled. And I don’t remember another thing after that. I woke up three hours later, thinking I had just dozed off. Talk about completely disorienting! I thought for sure I would never fall back to sleep. I was wrong. I slept for almost another 7 hours! WOW! With as conscientious as I am about my health, I am often amazed at how much I fail to see what my body really needs. Tomorrow will be long and stressful so I am glad that today I feel great and ready to tackle anything. And I am once again thankful for God’s hand in helping me be at at my best for Reese. As a mom, I just keep going, often times piling more on my plate than I have room for. I’m grateful that God sees this. And despite the piles of unfolded laundry and the dirty dishes in the sink, God knew it was more important to give me rest than it was to give me more time in my day to complete chores. He is awesome that way.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you receive an unexpected gift from God!!!
My chores were done yesterday. I got a good night of sleep. I woke to beautiful blue skies. And EVERYONE here is healthy. If that doesn’t motivate me, nothing will. My mood has lifted. After last week, I feel renewed. Restored. Ready. I am grateful to be worry-free. Well, at least for the moment. This kind of energy feels INCREDIBLE after the despair I felt last week. It was dark. I felt our skies agreed. We had more rain falling than I had seen in years. I honestly felt like I was in a pit deep with fear. When your child is sick you feel so helpless. And that feels horrible. But Reese is fine now. GOD IS SO GOOD. And I have climbed out of that hole. I am back standing in the light. And I am THANKFUL. So, so THANKFUL.
During yoga this morning, I stretched my body taller and reached high into the sky so that I could physically take in as much of this day as I could. I have taken so many deep breathes today. In relief and to absorb this easiness of this day into my soul. I don’t want to waste one moment of how I feel. The weightlessness of this day is a gift and I will treat it as such. I choose to be present. To balance. To enjoy. To serve others. To love. To chase my dreams. And to bravely wear my purpose. To me, THIS is living my best life with all that God has given me. I don’t have to, I want to. I choose embrace this day and to be open to all that it brings me.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you rise!!!
Today was The Down Syndrome Association of Orange County’s BUDDY WALK 2017. And I absolutely love this day. Nine years ago I had no idea that in just a few months my life would be filled with new people who would change me for the better. People who would unknowingly become some of my greatest heroes. People who I would cry with and celebrate with. People who would so generously trust me to share in their lives. And people who would lovingly share in mine. Yet, here I am. This event is so much more to me than just a fun fundraiser. It’s a collectivity of people I have come to know and respect. Many of whom I had the privilege of meeting just days into their introduction to Down Syndrome. They have blessed me so much. I can’t hold the tears back at this event. I love these families. I love being one of them. And I love this organization and its’ mission. There is a moment at each Buddy Walk that I take for myself. I look out across the stadium and see the crowd that has gathered. It is beautiful. At this event I’m not just the facilitator of our Circle or Friends group, I am part of an incredible community of human beings who understand the gift we have all been given. I am honored and humbled that God chose me for this. And I will always be grateful to stand in the presence of these warrior souls who are all just a little more tender, fight just a little bit harder and love a whole lot deeper than anyone I’ve ever met before.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you are part of the lucky few!!!
Earlier today I asked G3 and Libs what they felt was more important to me, receiving a gift from someone or someone spending time with me. They both immediately said TIME. They know me well. Sure I like the occasional gift (of whatever) but I like time. Time that someone I care about is willing to give me. I love being with the people I care about most. Their physical presence is priceless to me. We can be doing something. Or nothing. I just want to be together. Our time together is what I live for. It’s what I look forward to. If you want me to feel loved, THAT is how to do it. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy giving people gifts. I love the looks on my children’s faces on Christmas morning. But I find a greater joy in watching them, being with them, hearing their chatter and seeing their excitement than I do in receiving any material thing. TIME truly is the gift that feeds my soul and fills my heart.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you give the gift of you!!!
Today is my mom’s birthday. She would have been 69. She has been celebrating in heaven for 22 years now. Typing that just blows my mind. It’s shocking. If she were to walk through my front door right now, I could easily pick up where we left off. Just like she never left. Of course I would give her a giant hug first! But I know us, within minutes we would be catching up and probably laughing our tushies off about something. Gosh, wouldn’t that be nice …
It’s incredible how true unconditional love works. I love my mother just as much as I did the day she passed away. Heck, I think I might even love her more. I see so much of her in myself now. I value the life lessons she taught me. Especially the ones that she taught me by example. She taught me to laugh and find joy in every place life took me. Even the dark and scary parts. People wonder how I do it. How I can keep smiling and keep an optimistic outlook despite the life experiences I’ve had. People ask how I have not become bitter. My mom. Mom is how I do it. Her short life was far from perfect, but it never stopped her from laughing and hoping her way through each new day. This amazing ability of hers became her greatest gift to me and it has become her legacy. A legacy I try to honor every day.
Happy Birthday Mom! I love you like you never left and miss you fiercely every day. You were, are and always will be my greatest hero.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you sadly celebrate!!!