Happily falling apart …

Most people who know me would say that I hold it together unusually well during times of stress and change. I deal with things straightforward. What’s on my plate that day, gets my effort and attention. When I was younger I was a worry wart. I was anxious about EVERYTHING. That all faded away. Now I save my efforts for the real stuff and even then I remain pretty calm. And optimistic. It drives my crew crazy sometimes. I think they want to see more “emotion” out of me. Trust me, I am one emotional woman. I’m a crier. I laugh at just about everything. And I’m usually the happiest person in the room. But when it comes to stressful situations or change I just gave up freaking out about them. It’s way easier to just deal with them. In a “matter-of-fact” kind of way I muddle through the tough times. I do make a TON of lists. They tend to keep me focused. Plus they are a great visual for me to measure my progress through the problem or situation I’m currently in the thick of.

Regardless of what I’ve been dealing with, when the day comes when I feel like I am finally passed it, I tend to fall apart. I’ll cry more, sleep like a rock and sometimes I get sick. It’s like my mind and body can finally let their defenses down. It’s funny. Even though this is when I feel like a mess, it’s also a time when I feel my strongest. It’s like earning another battle scar. And it’s a reminder that I am a survivor. Again.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you happily fall apart!!!


A walk in the park … 

I took a stroll with Libs earlier this evening. Darn I love this kid. She is so funny and silly. I genuinely love spending time with her and talking.

She is at the end 

 of her first year of junior high. Boy oh boy, isn’t that a tough time even for the most well adjusted kids?!?! Don’t get me wrong, Libs isn’t having any trouble. But it’s just such a tender time. She is not quite enough of a little child to need her mommy but not quite old enough to really fake like she doesn’t, HA!

Anyway, today we had a great talk. We discussed making mistakes and how to steer clear of the really big ones. We talked about how to have a balanced life. We came up with ways to negate peer pressure. And we thought of different ways to cope with stress. She is such an open and receptive kid. She is sensitive and still so formidable. I just wanted to check in with her before the teenage stuff hits. I wanted to ensure she has a standard mode of operation to fall back on even before she actually needs one.

Darn this kid has my heart … and I would do just about anything to protect hers.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you had a nice walk in the park!!!