My son, George, came home from college last night. I am so happy! Although Sid won’t be making it home this year and our house won’t be as full this holiday season as it has been in the past, I have a hard time feeling bad for myself. If I’ve learned anything over the past few years it’s that TIME is precious and HOME can very much so be a feeling or a state of mind. Again, change will always bring this MOM heart of mine a little bit of sorrow and a whole lot of joy. The process of growing and letting go, as a part of motherhood, is something that I suspect will challenge me for the rest of my life. But I can’t deny that regardless of proximity my heart is full knowing that the people I love most are where life has taken them. I know that they are where they feel they need to be. And THAT is beautiful.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you return HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS (whether it be in heart, mind, body or soul)!!!
My son George headed back to his university this morning. I absolutely love it when he is home. Before he graduated from high school we would have daily talks. At some point almost every afternoon I would make my way to his room and plop down on his couch for our talk. Out of all the things that I miss about this kid when he is at school, that is what I miss the most. Sure, we text, talk on the phone and FaceTime, but it’s not the same.
This holiday week was a busy one for us and although George and I found plenty of time to have our talks and hang out, I never made it to the couch where our talks usually took place. We laughed a little bit about my rigidity on this one since I literally talked his ear off all week. He is SO patient with me! HA! Anyway, we did have our talks this week and we spent lots of time together, but there is a part of me that will always remember a simpler time. A time when he was just a knock on the door away. I miss those days, but I am finding that lately I embrace the changes easier knowing how happy he is with his life. THIS could quite possibly be the most comforting thing I’ve felt as a mother. When your child is happy, nothing else seems to matter. At least that is how I feel.
This morning I got up and made one of George’s favorite breakfasts, Eggs Benedict. We were busy trying to get him out the door with packing and loading his car. But I just had to do it. I made my way to his room and plopped down on his couch. We talked briefly, but he completely understood that I needed a moment there. I had to claim a little of our past together in the midst of his beautiful NOW and on the verge of his incredible future. I can accept all the change that has happened and all the change coming, but the mom in me will still steal a glimpse of his childhood every chance I get.
Well, I hope you all have a day that is the same but different!!!
This morning I was looking at my Facebook Memories and realized that 5 years ago today Sidney and I attended a traveling college open house event. She was at the beginning part of her junior year and this visit would be the catalyst to more than I could have ever imaged. This would eventually be the university Sidney would choose to attend.
In the post I struggled with all of it. I guess nothing has changed there, HA! But it was amazing to see how much time DID change things. I remember that day perfectly. It would be the beginning of so much; a pre-college stay on campus, tours of the city, the application process, a portfolio, her senior year of high school and what would come to be her final year at home. What a journey it has been. To see how much she has grown is incredible. She has accomplished much. As I progressed through all of that with her I could not deny that she was on the right path. She FIT perfectly through every door that was opened for her. I watched her fall in love with all of it. And because she had the courage to take a chance on herself she has now created a wonderful life for herself. Despite being so young at the time my baby girl chose her future wisely. She listened to her heart and committed to nurturing and growing the gifts and talents God gave her. And in what seems like the blink of an eye … “my baby” girl grew up.
A lot can happen in 5 years. Nothing in our lives looks the same as it did back then. Applying this knowledge to our futures fills me with a sense of excitement, but also with a little MOM sadness too. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss the simpler times when my big kids where little. I do. But watching them mature and seeing them chase their dreams and achieve their goals brings me overwhelming amounts of joy. I have mentioned before that this process comes with many ups and downs for me. I don’t do any of this gracefully. I feel my way through it. I’m thankful that my kids allow me to SIT with all of it in my own way. After all, it’s not just them who has been growing in all of this. I have learned and changed too. I am honestly fascinated at how so many lives can grow together yet still be on their own personal paths. I have come to believe that THIS is what life and love should look like when they are set in motion over a lifetime. And I don’t think I have ever been a part of something more beautiful.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you look back and move forward!!!
I couldn’t fall asleep last night and I woke up at 3:30 a. m. this morning.
Because after two months away at college I FINALLY get to see my son George today. It’s his university’s family weekend. YAY! And get this! Sid has arranged to spend some time with me today too! I get to spend time with BOTH my big kids! WOO HOO!
Well, I hope you all have a day where you are too excited to sleep!!!
I’m not sure if this is about bad luck, perseverance, the love I have for my son or just straight up craziness.
Last year Family Weekend, at George’s university, was canceled due to the Northern California Wildfires. Sad, but COMPLETELY understandable!
Flash forward to a few weeks ago …
I was in a sad-missing-my-son kinda funk, so I booked flights for this year’s Family Weekend. But it sort of backfired. It actually made me a little bit sadder because I realized that the weekend it was being held was two months away. UGH. A few weeks later I was trying to remember if I had booked a rental car along with our flights. I SERIOUSLY, couldn’t remember! In searching for that confirmation, I realized that I never made a hotel reservation. THAT would have been a HUGE BUMMER had I not caught that one! Yesterday we got the official Family Weekend registration email but when I went to register the links didn’t work for me. I finally figured THAT out and then realized that I didn’t know George’s Student ID # to complete the registration. I looked EVERYWHERE for it but I still couldn’t find it. So I text George and, after a few hours, he text me back and gave me his ID number. YAY!
I am happy to say that I was FINALLY able to complete all the details of this little trip … um … I think.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you overcome every obstacle!!!
Today is another travel day for us. My son George began his journey back to college where he will be starting his Sophomore year. He doesn’t need me for much in regards to his drive, but I will fly to meet him later today so that I can help him get settled on “move-in” day. My older daughter Sidney, who goes to college about 50 miles from George, planned on coming home this afternoon for a visit and to help with Libs and Reese. To my surprise she actually showed up at about 4 am. Hearing someone unexpectedly entering your home at that time makes a mom a little ninja-ish. The last time I thought someone was breaking into our home I grabbed a roll of Christmas wrapping paper to beat them with. Like that was a good idea! Good lord. Anyway, I’m not really complaining, because even though it was just for a little while, all of my kids were with me. That’s the best. Oh … and Sid brought home my favorite donuts for breakfast. Donuts and all my kids, yep, I’m a happy mom.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you go from here to there and you bring donuts!!!