Cuddles and coffee …

I’m not sure if there is a better way to start my day than the way I did this morning. It was certainly MY calm before MY storm, HA!

Well, I hope you all have a day that starts with cuddles and coffee!!!

Advertisements

Loose coffee lids, drooling and unnecessary panic …

This morning after I drove Libs to school I had a brief moment to just sit. So I decided that I would SIT in bed. YES, I went back to bed with coffee in hand. I was like, WHY NOT?!?! I deserve a calm moment before I jump into my busy day. So I settled in and started going through my emails.

Now, I have to explain something before I go on. I always use a disposable lidded to-go cup on school mornings. I know they are wasteful but I’m in and out of the house so much and have to walk away from my coffee so frequently, that I found that they spare me from spills and drinking cold coffee. So, I use them.

Now, back to my morning. Engrossed in my emails, I took a sip of my coffee, and suddenly had a warm feeling between my … boobs. I was a little surprised, but GET THIS. I just assumed that I had drooled all over myself. DROOLED. Like that is something normal for me?!?! Not thinking anything of it I cleaned myself up and went back to my emails. When I went to take another sip of my coffee I reminded myself to be careful not to drool all over myself again. Because that is what you do when you are suddenly and spontaneously a new drool-er. But guess what?!?! It happened again, ONLY WORSE! It was like a coffee boob bath! This time I was a bit more concerned. WHAT is wrong with my face?!?! WHY can’t I get this coffee into my mouth like usual?!?! Have I COMPLETELY lost this ability?!?! And if I have, WHY?!?!

So, what do I do?

I begin to do a mini medical assessment. I feel around on my face. Am I numb? Do I have facial dropping? Yes folks, THIS is where I went with my thoughts. OY.

PERHAPS, the first thing I should have checked was the lid to my coffee cup … like a normal person. Ya know, to see if it popped off. LIKE IT HAD. No major medical crisis here. Just an unsecured lid and a coffee drinker with a wild imagination. Good Lordy.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t panic for ABSOLUTELY no reason at all!!!

Do what you gotta do …

Today I had my annual mammogram. It’s always a little nerve racking for me, as I would assume it is for all women. It’s incredibly hard to sit there calmly when I have to answer questions about my mom and the disease that took her life. I literally want to jump out of my skin. Today I decided to have no coffee before I left for my appointment. Sleepy and lazy is way more beneficial to me sitting there waiting for my name to be called, than amped up on caffeine and nutty. Trust. Me.

I arrived to the hospital early and got called back very quickly. I was in and out of there 10 minutes before my scheduled appointment time. WOW! It all went as usual but the tech took some extra images. That freaked me out a little until she explained why. She actually showed me why on my images. My boobs for didn’t fit in the whole image frame. HA! This happened to me years ago. I believe I was told that they try to use the same size imaging plates every year for continuity, so if you gain or lose weight that can alter what they see. I was fine once my tech told me why and thanked her for being thorough.

Anyway, for me mammograms will always be scary. I will never go into one anxiety-free. Nor will I feel relieved until I get my results. Mammograms are, at minimum, very uncomfortable and can be downright painful. I will always want to cancel my appointment, but I will show up anyway. And … I will always stand in front of the mirror in the dressing room and take a good long look at myself before I go in to the imaging room. It is here where I ground myself in my truth.

I am Donna’s daughter.

And yes, she died of Breast Cancer.

But I am also me.

I am who God created, and I have my OWN life journey.

It does not have to be the same as my mother’s.

Perhaps one day it could be.

But for now, I will just take care of myself in the best ways I know how. Even if it terrifies me to do so.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you do what you gotta do!!!

Coffee please …

I got so spend some time with two of my sorority sisters last night. It was VERY much needed, LONG overdue and a GREAT time. But we all pushed it. We were out LATE. And Sunday morning came early. TOO early.

Well, I hope you all have a day where someone kindly brings you coffee!!!

We did it anyway …

Early (no, REALLY EARLY) this morning I took Sid and George to the airport. After flight delays and airline changes, I was finally able to crawl back into bed around 8 am. Luckily we had a late night out up in Los Angeles seeing a movie and having dinner so everyone ended up sleeping in. When we all finally woke up I realized quickly that today wasn’t going to be productive. Laziness was going to be the mood for the day and I was fine with it. At one point this afternoon Libs wanted a sweet treat and I wanted a holiday coffee. Normally, if I’m home, I make the effort to make my own drinks. But the thought of making my own at that point sounded a lot like taking a high school chemistry class. Which incidentally, I never took, HA! Anyway, we opted for the best laziest solution we could come up with. Starbucks mobil ordering. I’m not sure why getting in real clothes, brushing my hair, driving 3 minutes and being seen is public was the better option. Because let’s face it, that took WAY more effort than just walking to the kitchen, turning on my Keurig, mixing up some spices and grabbing some cookies. This was clearly not the laziest way to fulfill our cravings. But for some reason, it felt that way.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you did it anyway!!!

Cars, coffee and priorities …

So I’m car shopping. Oh boy. This is a tough one for me. But having gone to an auto show yesterday certainly helped. It allowed me to wander and look and really narrow down what I liked enough to go test drive. Which I did today. I am self admittedly NOT a car person. But I AM a coffee person. And I am not ashamed to say that the dealership that has a Starbucks in their service area, is winning me over. Totally.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get your priorities straight!!!

Decaffeinated …

Late this afternoon I realized I had no coffee today. NO. COFFEE. I wasn’t even trying not to. I just started this day CRAZY busy and it stayed that way all day. You would think that it would have occurred to me that I hadn’t had coffee at 1 pm when I realized I hadn’t eaten yet either. Seriously, it was one of THOSE days. But honestly, I’m in shock. As an avid coffee drinker I’m at a loss. How? I somehow survived the whole day with NO COFFEE. I didn’t die. No one was harmed. And the world didn’t end. Whoda thunk?!?!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you are decaffeinated!!!