A happy day …

Good Morning World! Today I have JOY in my heart. More than usual! I feel so much relief now that Reese’s surgery is over. I already see positive changes in her! My son, George, is home from college for Spring Break. This is ALWAYS good! And despite a little rain coming on Wednesday the weather here is absolutely GORGEOUS. My heart is SO FULL!

Well, I hope you all have a HAPPY DAY!!!

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Peace of mind (ain’t happening around here today) …

As a parent, you worry. I am pretty sure that my kids think that I worry more than the average mom. I tell them, JUST WAIT UNTIL YOU HAVE CHILDREN! Anyway, early this morning Sidney headed back to college … in her new car. Although I’m extremely thankful that she has a new and reliable car, that drive back to school still gets me. She’s got over 6 hours of driving ahead of her. Not including breaks. And that just makes me nervous. I am not sure if I’ll ever get UN-nervous about things like this. Again, I worry. A LOT. And I LOVE my kids A TON. So today I’m just going to try to keep myself busy and not check her location 473 times. I’ll try to keep that to about 307. HA and UGH.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you find some peace of mind!!!

It wasn’t pretty …

I went out last night and didn’t get home until after 1 a.m. this morning. I was pooped by the time I got home and I fell asleep pretty quickly. I woke up about 4 hours later realizing that I hadn’t moved much. Apparently I had decided that it was comfortable to sleep with my face smooshed. Yikes. You know how it’s adorable for a little child to wake up with pink cheeks and sheet creases all over their little faces after a hard sleep? It’s down right precious! Um. It’s not the same way for an adult. Trust me, there is nothing cute about it.

Well, I hope you all have a day that starts off prettier than mine!!!

A hand to hold …

As of yesterday afternoon my world finally calmed down. Yay! It’s honestly been a whirlwind. A wave of relaxation literally washed over me after my last meeting yesterday. Last night I realized that I’ve been so busy that I hadn’t really even given much thought to my favorite holiday fast approaching. Even after decorating, confirming with George when he would head home and after booking Sid’s flight it still hadn’t hit me. Talk about distracted!

I had big plans today. Plans to nurture myself. THIS is so important. Seriously, we all need to do more of it. But that’s a topic for another day. My day started early with a wonderful carefree run. I prayed. I thought about Thanksgiving. I thought about how blessed we are and how thankful I am. And then it hit me! ALL of my babies will be home. SOON. I was instantly overcome with emotions. I have not been with all four of my kids at the same time since early August. That’s a first. Again, I don’t like it but I wouldn’t want it any other way. They are off living their lives and becoming who they are meant to be. It’s beautiful.

The picture I posted with this blog is quite a few years old but it’s one of my favorites. I’d be lying if I said that I don’t miss those days. I do. They were days when we were all a bit younger and life wasn’t pulling us in so many different directions. I’m not one to want to turn back time, but I do like to look back. It makes me appreciate our togetherness even more now. I love our family history and the memories that we have made. They are, after all, what paved the way to what is our now. Again, it is beautiful. I know that our NOW might not look like our THEN but it still takes my breath away. These incredible souls are my WHY. I am blessed to be their mom. So so so blessed. And I am grateful that regardless of how much time passes or the distance between them, that they will always have each other to walk through life with. As an only child I wanted this for them. No. I needed this for them. And knowing that they have each other fills this mama’s heart with immeasurable peace and joy.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you have a hand to hold!!!

Rise to the occasion …

There is NOTHING like seeing my children overcome adversity and succeed despite the odds stacked against. To watch them persevere mentally and physically, amidst self doubt, just fills this mama’s heart with pride. And seeing them come to the realization that taking a chance on themselves is worth it, will ALWAYS fill my heart with joy. I can attest, when your child realizes that they ARE capable of reaching goals and living out their dreams, it is truly a beautiful moment.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you rose to the occasion!!!

Giggles …

During the day our home can get VERY quiet with everyone gone. It’s something I don’t think I’ll ever get used to especially after having had four children. Kids come with a TON of noises! But there is one noise that has to be one of the cutest and sweetest sounds I’ve ever heard. I look forward to hearing it after being in a silent home. It always puts a smile on my face and Reese is REALLY good at it!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you hear lots of giggles!!!

Choose love …

We all remember where we were. It was an earth-shattering day. A wake up call. And it didn’t matter who we were or where we were, it was a day that we were all called to action.

I was in my car on the way to work when I got the call. I hadn’t worked in years but my old employer asked if I could take a hospital contract since I lived so close to the site. With Sid and George in pre-school I jumped at the chance. It was my husband who had called me. He asked if I knew if my aunt was working in the towers that day. I had no idea why he would be asking me that. For some reason I hadn’t turned on the television nor the radio. I was oblivious to what was happening. And I was in utter shock when he told me.

After checking on Sid and George, I continued on to work. I still don’t know why. No one would have questioned if I had decided it was more important to get my kids, go home and confirm that my family back east was safe. All I can say is that it just seemed to flow naturally.

About two hours later, after absorbing that the United States was under attack, and finding out that my family was no where near the city that day, I was part of a team that was searching hospital rooms for suspicious packages. All the hospitals in our area were receiving bomb threats. Looking back on it now, I don’t think I would have known what a suspicious package even looked like. I was a social worker not a part of a bomb squad. But there I was, discretely checking hospital rooms for anything that I felt looked concerning. Again, it all just seemed to flow naturally. But I wasn’t alone. That day we were all called to do more than we we could have ever expected. And when I say “called” I don’t mean it was a physical call or someone asking. What I saw that day, across our great nation, was that people JUST DID what they felt they needed to do to help. It was beautiful, and sadly for some, that reaction to be of help ended tragically. But seeing the natural propensity to DO GOOD, will forever leave a lasting imprint on my heart and memory. Regardless of our political affiliations, our race or ethnicity, our socioeconomic standing, our education level, our sexual orientation or our religious beliefs, our souls banded together for the greater good. And it was one of the most incredible things I’ve ever seen. And through our grief and healing we came together as a country. We were proud to be Americans. Homes were adorned with flags. We gained a sense of family and togetherness. I felt that it was such an amazing way to honor our fallen heroes. There was a patriotism that swept across our country that I had never seen before in my lifetime. It had me in awe. It still does. I want that for us. I want that for us every minute of every day … because I honestly can’t think of a better way to win against hate and terror and evil, than to show an abundance of genuine love for one another despite all of our differences.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you choose love!!!