A hand to hold …

As of yesterday afternoon my world finally calmed down. Yay! It’s honestly been a whirlwind. A wave of relaxation literally washed over me after my last meeting yesterday. Last night I realized that I’ve been so busy that I hadn’t really even given much thought to my favorite holiday fast approaching. Even after decorating, confirming with George when he would head home and after booking Sid’s flight it still hadn’t hit me. Talk about distracted!

I had big plans today. Plans to nurture myself. THIS is so important. Seriously, we all need to do more of it. But that’s a topic for another day. My day started early with a wonderful carefree run. I prayed. I thought about Thanksgiving. I thought about how blessed we are and how thankful I am. And then it hit me! ALL of my babies will be home. SOON. I was instantly overcome with emotions. I have not been with all four of my kids at the same time since early August. That’s a first. Again, I don’t like it but I wouldn’t want it any other way. They are off living their lives and becoming who they are meant to be. It’s beautiful.

The picture I posted with this blog is quite a few years old but it’s one of my favorites. I’d be lying if I said that I don’t miss those days. I do. They were days when we were all a bit younger and life wasn’t pulling us in so many different directions. I’m not one to want to turn back time, but I do like to look back. It makes me appreciate our togetherness even more now. I love our family history and the memories that we have made. They are, after all, what paved the way to what is our now. Again, it is beautiful. I know that our NOW might not look like our THEN but it still takes my breath away. These incredible souls are my WHY. I am blessed to be their mom. So so so blessed. And I am grateful that regardless of how much time passes or the distance between them, that they will always have each other to walk through life with. As an only child I wanted this for them. No. I needed this for them. And knowing that they have each other fills this mama’s heart with immeasurable peace and joy.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you have a hand to hold!!!


Rise to the occasion …

There is NOTHING like seeing my children overcome adversity and succeed despite the odds stacked against. To watch them persevere mentally and physically, amidst self doubt, just fills this mama’s heart with pride. And seeing them come to the realization that taking a chance on themselves is worth it, will ALWAYS fill my heart with joy. I can attest, when your child realizes that they ARE capable of reaching goals and living out their dreams, it is truly a beautiful moment.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you rose to the occasion!!!

Giggles …

During the day our home can get VERY quiet with everyone gone. It’s something I don’t think I’ll ever get used to especially after having had four children. Kids come with a TON of noises! But there is one noise that has to be one of the cutest and sweetest sounds I’ve ever heard. I look forward to hearing it after being in a silent home. It always puts a smile on my face and Reese is REALLY good at it!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you hear lots of giggles!!!

Choose love …

We all remember where we were. It was an earth-shattering day. A wake up call. And it didn’t matter who we were or where we were, it was a day that we were all called to action.

I was in my car on the way to work when I got the call. I hadn’t worked in years but my old employer asked if I could take a hospital contract since I lived so close to the site. With Sid and George in pre-school I jumped at the chance. It was my husband who had called me. He asked if I knew if my aunt was working in the towers that day. I had no idea why he would be asking me that. For some reason I hadn’t turned on the television nor the radio. I was oblivious to what was happening. And I was in utter shock when he told me.

After checking on Sid and George, I continued on to work. I still don’t know why. No one would have questioned if I had decided it was more important to get my kids, go home and confirm that my family back east was safe. All I can say is that it just seemed to flow naturally.

About two hours later, after absorbing that the United States was under attack, and finding out that my family was no where near the city that day, I was part of a team that was searching hospital rooms for suspicious packages. All the hospitals in our area were receiving bomb threats. Looking back on it now, I don’t think I would have known what a suspicious package even looked like. I was a social worker not a part of a bomb squad. But there I was, discretely checking hospital rooms for anything that I felt looked concerning. Again, it all just seemed to flow naturally. But I wasn’t alone. That day we were all called to do more than we we could have ever expected. And when I say “called” I don’t mean it was a physical call or someone asking. What I saw that day, across our great nation, was that people JUST DID what they felt they needed to do to help. It was beautiful, and sadly for some, that reaction to be of help ended tragically. But seeing the natural propensity to DO GOOD, will forever leave a lasting imprint on my heart and memory. Regardless of our political affiliations, our race or ethnicity, our socioeconomic standing, our education level, our sexual orientation or our religious beliefs, our souls banded together for the greater good. And it was one of the most incredible things I’ve ever seen. And through our grief and healing we came together as a country. We were proud to be Americans. Homes were adorned with flags. We gained a sense of family and togetherness. I felt that it was such an amazing way to honor our fallen heroes. There was a patriotism that swept across our country that I had never seen before in my lifetime. It had me in awe. It still does. I want that for us. I want that for us every minute of every day … because I honestly can’t think of a better way to win against hate and terror and evil, than to show an abundance of genuine love for one another despite all of our differences.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you choose love!!!

Ready …

Today was Libs and Reese’s last day of summer break. Meals were prepped. Their clothes are picked out. And their backpacks are by the door. I guess there is nothing left to do than bid this summer adieu.

Well, I hope you all had a day where you got ready!!!

Time changed much but not us …

I work up early this morning, despite being up way too late. The house was quiet and I began feeling a bit nostalgic. I always do this time of year. With summer break ending and the new school year starting in a few weeks I tend to feel similar to how I do on New Years Eve. It’s my time to reflect and I look back on summers past. With two adult children off to college I feel even more emotional than I normally do. And it all came out this morning! I spent much of my early morning looking through old pictures of my kids. I laughed, I cried and I soaked in every wonderful memory. It is like time stood still for a moment, but also flashed by in an instant. It’s all a blur but I remember almost every second of it. It sort of makes me sad yet I also delight in knowing that so much has changed but not the love we share and the memories we keep. They are our constant and they are our story. And they are what makes us … US. I am comforted in knowing that no amount of time or distance can ever change that.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you can say that time changed much but not us!!!

Special …

Last night Sid, George and Libs (my three oldest children) took me to see Imagine Dragons at The Forum. It was incredible! I LOVE Imagine Dragons but it didn’t occur to me until last night how many songs of theirs I actually run to. HA! I guess their songs really speak to me. And they certainly got me up and dancing last night. The performance itself was absolutely phenomenal. The band really puts on quite a show visually and sends some beautiful and authentic messages throughout about acceptance, suicide, depression and mental health just to name a few. And if you thought Dan Reynolds’ voice is powerful when you hear it on your earbuds, JUST WAIT, until you hear it live. WHOA! I am no expert but I will tell you that this man can sing!

But what I loved most about last night, is who I got to share it with. My kids. They started planning this 50th birthday celebration for me a long time ago. The effort it took to pull it all off and to keep it a secret from me until my actual birthday took a village. They certainly surprised the heck out of me and made me feel loved. I know I say this a lot but I really do have the greatest kids in the world.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel special!!!