One of THOSE nights …

My 1 am turned into 3 am. But I also saw 4 am. And I was able to give an irritated eye roll to 5:30 am. The next hour felt like another blur of restlessness. Ew. Needless to say, today should be interesting.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t have one of THOSE nights!!!

ZONK OUT …

We are on day two of the Daylight Savings aftermath. HA! And for some strange reason I woke up at 4:40 a.m. which was our old 3:40 a.m. I was wide awake too. This isn’t how it usually works. I’m not usually awake earlier, I’m usually struggling to wake up “on time”! At least that is how it has gone in past years. But I guess not this year. Which is weird. And confusing. And makes me think that this may all come back to haunt me later today.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t ZONK OUT!!!

Four ugly little words …

Fall back. Spring forward. The four most draining words a human being can ever hear. The four words that I personally have come to loathe. The four words that turn normally functioning awake people, into zombies. The four words that turn non-coffee drinkers into coffee addicts. The four words that turn a 24-hour day into an eternity. THOSE four ugly little words.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you survive day light savings!!!

YAY … ish … AGAIN …

I woke up at 3 am all on my own. AGAIN. At 3:30 I realized I wasn’t going to fall back to sleep without a fight. A few years ago I created a little yoga stretch sequence that I can do in bed. It either wakes me up or stretches me out enough so that I can relax and go back to sleep. Today it worked like a charm and I fell back to sleep before 4 am. YAY … ish. I then proceeded to have a crazy dream about my ceiling falling down from a water leak. I woke up in a panic at 4:30 searching my ceiling for any bulging and dripping water. Luckily it was fine. But I was wide awake. AGAIN. I tried my hardest to fall back to sleep but this time it wasn’t happening. So I got up and went on an early morning walk. I surrendered to the idea that God was just going to give me more hours in my day to enjoy. YAY … ish. AGAIN.

Well, I hope you all have a day we’re you rise, stretch, dream, freak out and give in!!!

I wondered why …

I woke up at about 5:00am this morning. Sad for a weekend! I wasn’t tired anymore and, as much as I tried, I couldn’t fall back to sleep. At 7:00am I gave up altogether figuring Reese would be awake soon.

But that was not the case … and I was baffled.

Then the ugly truth it HIT ME. Daylight Savings. EW. And even more EW was the realization that my 5:00am wake-up was ACTUALLY our old 4:00AM! Ugh …

Well, I hope you all have a day where you figure it out!!!

A morning at home …

Today will be the last morning George wakes up in our home for at least the next few months. That is just weird. Aside from sleepovers and camps, for the past 18 years he has been here in the morning.

George is an early riser. He always has been. Even as a baby. He's quiet for about 30 minutes after waking up. When he comes to the kitchen he is "officially" wake enough to eat and say good morning. He drinks coffee now and has a routine that is so … um … adult-like. I saw changes in him coming over the past few years. Really it was more like "sneaking" into our lives like a thief in the night and changing my little boy, who loved cereal and cartoons, into a young man.

I know that George will be back again, and in the scope of things, relatively soon. But it will all be different then. He will have changed even more. College and moving away just does that to you. As it should. I wonder what our new mornings will look like when he returns? I'm sure he will be even more mature. More worldly. More wise. But no matter how much life changes him, or how much he ages, he will always wake up and be my little boy.

Well, I hope you all start the day with someone you love!!!

Awake again …

Meningitis makes you tired. Very. It’s not just during the active part of the virus either. At least not for me. The two times I have had it the fatigue lasted a very long time. The first time it took me about 8 months for my family to really notice a difference. That’s a long time. And I think that must be my standard. Where I felt the heaviest of my fatigue pass in about April this, 6 months after I was diagnosed, my mornings remained very difficult.

I have ALWAYS been a morning person and for most of my life I’ve needed less sleep than is typical. But not since October. And it has been a hard adjustment. Don’t get me wrong, I am very pleased, as are all my doctors, with my recovery. I’ve done exceedingly well. I am beyond grateful. But the struggle I’ve faced waking up has been a real life changer. I decided sometime in May to make peace with it. It wasn’t what I wanted but I had to accept that the old me “morning me” may never return. I needed to forget about the woman who bounced out of bed in the morning before most people in her timezone ever woke up, HA! I needed to be thankful for all the extra hours God had so generously given me in the past to enjoy my day. I needed to move on and embrace the me that was left after surviving another of life’s battles. And I did. 

The came June. I’m needing less sleep and rising with a familiar energy that seems like I’ve found a long lost friend. I’m enjoying the silence of a sleeping home again. I’m working out earlier. I’m getting more accomplished throughout my day. I can’t say I’m 100% myself, but I am pretty darn close. And I really couldn’t be happier.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel AWAKE again!!!

Getting some rest (NOT) … 

Soooo my new Fitbit tracks sleep. I’ll be honest the first week it seemed to be a little generous on the hours it tracked me sleeping. Then I saw that it had two sleep tracking settings. “Normal” and “Sensitive”. And I thought, “Ah ha!” I don’t do anything NORMAL so I figured let’s give the “sensitive” tracking a whirl. Low and behold, it picked up EXACTLY how I sleep. In my 7 hour and 12 minute “sleep schedule” I was actually only asleep for 3 hours and 33 minutes. Three hours and 39 minutes I was awake and/or restless. GOOD LORDY. Speaks volumes, doesn’t it?!?! And people wonder why I am a little nutty.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you get some rest!!!

  

Conked out …

Have you ever had that all of a sudden sleepy feeling? It comes on so freakin fast. One minute you are a fairly normal person walking around like everyone else, and the next, you are virtually unable to move. You suddenly lose your ability to keep your eyes open. Your body decides it no longer wants to be a part of the awake world around it. And it shuts you down. Immediately. No negotiations. You. Are. DONE.

Holy moly, this afternoon I sat down on my couch for about 30 seconds and it was like I melted and became part of the darn piece of furniture. If I didn’t know better I would have thought someone had attached tiny weights to my eyelids and slipped one of those heavy x-ray protection vests on me without me knowing. I was immobilized!

Well, I hope you all had a day where you didn’t CONK OUT!!!