Run down …

At the end of another busy day we found ourselves out to dinner AGAIN last night. UGH. To put it into perspective, Libs didn’t finish up at school until 7 pm and she probably could have stayed longer if I had let her. Again, UGH.

Sitting at dinner last night I was abundantly thankful that I didn’t have to cook. I really don’t like eating out during the weekdays, but I was so tired and hungry that I didn’t care. I’d even been feeling a bit sketchy earlier in the day too. Almost like I was about to come down with something. I dismissed it because I’ve been so busy and stressed these past few weeks. Add in the poor night’s sleep that I had the other day when Reese had her growing pains and it wasn’t a good equation. I, however, chose to remain in complete denial. Bad idea. Again, again, UGH.

As we were enjoying our not-homemade blessing of a dinner last night, I caught a glimpse of something on Reese’s face. SNOT. Her nose was dripping ever so slightly. I instantly began claiming that the chill in the air both inside and outside the restaurant must be causing it. As she began to drip more I moved into accusing allergens as the culprit. This was clearly a desperate stretch since the child doesn’t even have allergies! By the time we got home Reese was in full drip mode. Somehow I still managed to give her a bath, dry her hair and get her into bed a few minutes before her bed time. Moments like that, I feel like I have magical powers.

Unfortunately the magic wore off pretty quickly. My poor baby girl was not having a good nights sleep. I rubbed her back, repositioned her and cuddled her all night long. At around 4 am she seemed to be more comfortable than she had been all night and was sound asleep. I was SO THANKFUL!

So what did I do? Sleep, right?!?! NOPE. I got up and rummaged through paperwork. Really Jennifer, REALLY?!?! Oh and I forgot to mention that at some point in the darkness of night, my denial officially wore off. I began to feeling sniffly too.

1000 times, UGH.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t feel run down!!!

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Exploding heads …

Yesterday Libs had her first tennis match on what had to be the hottest day ever on earth. OK, I exaggerated. But still. It had to be close.

As the afternoon went on a mild wind kicked up. Although it felt wonderful, it made me not be able to breathe and my head started feeling like it was the size and weight of a watermelon. And not one of those minis. Then the pressure set in. Oh. My. Gosh. It was awful. I couldn’t imagine what was going on inside my head that made it feel like it was going to pop off. It was like my face suddenly decided, “NOPE you don’t need air crazy lady with the BIG head”. Sadly, today I’m not much better. OY.

Well, I hope you all have a day where it doesn’t feel like your head is going to explode!!!

An itchy drug-seeking hypocrite (I own it) …

So a few months ago my dermatologist gave me samples of sunscreens to use. She knows I’m freaked completely out by chemicals so she gave me two that she thought would suit me. I used one and it was very thick. Not my favorite. Then I used the other one she gave me and I loved how it felt on my skin. It is made with naturally-sourced sunscreen ingredients and is fragrance-free. Perfect for me, right?!?!

Nope.

The few times I used it I got a small bumpy patch on my arm that itched for a few days. It wasn’t horrible but stilly not the most comfortable experience. But you would think that would stop me from using it further. Nope again … it didn’t. 

In hindsight, I find my decision to use it on race day last Sunday, incredibly dumb. I have completely broken out in bumps and/or welts every where I used it. It is even irritating my left eye. My symptoms have been so bad (and getting worse), that my medical provider wants me to contact poison control in an effort to find out what I could be allergic too. I need to avoid whatever it is FOR SURE!

Just for giggles let’s have a recap. My fear of chemicals leads to the recommended use of a sunscreen that should be “safe”. Only to have a reaction so bad that I end up on THREE chemical laden medications. THAT I AM WILLING TO TAKE BECAUSE I AM SO FREAKING MISERABLE. Yep, only me. And people wonder why I came up with my own little land to live in. BIG sigh.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you don’t feel like an itchy drug seeking hypocrite!!!