Thankful, grateful and blessed …

I am heading into this Mother’s Day weekend feeling pretty good so I want to write all of this now. It’s always unknown how the actual day will hit me. I can feel fine going to sleep the night before Mother’s Day and then BAM a blanket of sadness is there in the morning. But right now I feel overwhelmingly blessed and I want to stay focused on what I have, not on what I have lost. I truly have SO much to be thankful for. I’m thankful because I am a mom with the best kids in the world. I am thankful that I have been allowed to share so much of their lives with them. I am thankful I have watched almost three of them now grow to be adults. I absolutely LOVE watching them chase their dreams! And I am thankful that God entrusted me with Reese. I think I needed her just as much as she needed me. Of all the things that I have become in my life, MOTHER, is my favorite. Yes, I lost my mom, and that still hurts after 25 years. But being a mom has healed me so much and has eased my grief in a way that nothing else can. So, I want to give a BIG shout out to Sid, George, Libby and Reese (and, of course, Trevor Sid’s boyfriend too). Thank you. Thank you for taking the broken parts of me and putting me back together again. Thank you for understanding my grief and helping me grow through it. Thank you for readily seeing and honoring grandma’s legacy that has been weaved into each of your lives. You are truly my greatest joy. You are the reason I smile so much and why I laugh so hard. You are my hopes and dreams come true. I couldn’t possibly be me, without all of you. And there is absolutely nothing in this world that I love more than all of you!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel thankful, grateful and blessed!!!

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Meet me in the middle …

Everywhere you go, you see it, you hear it or you read it. Someone is offended by something. Nothing is free from being potentially offensive. NOTHING. I don’t know what we can blame this on, but it’s REAL and it’s rather annoying. On the flip side of that you see the fallout from the perceived anonymity that social media and interactive websites have given people. You know, the internet trolls who have a false sense of bravery? The ones who will spew out any and all of their garbage thoughts into comment bubbles just because they can. HOW can these two worlds exist at the same time? I just don’t get it. And for the record, I don’t like either. Can’t we stop it already? BOTH ends of the spectrum need to calm the heck down. Let’s have a little grey area! Let’s not be offended by EVERYTHING and let’s not see the need to be offensive just because it’s our “right”. Let’s all DIG DEEP to find those coping skills and let’s decide to choose KINDNESS! It all seems pretty simple to me. But for some reason, it’s not. BIG sigh.

Well, I hope you all have a day where you meet me in the middle!!!

Piled up …

THIS. WEEK. The finale to our incredibly busy Spring. It seems like I’ve waited an eternity for this week to arrive. It’s been a LONG one and I wondered if we would make it with all our responsibilities met. Surprisingly, we did! But we are limping to the finish. I have definitely BEEN THERE, DONE THAT as both a runner and a mom. HA! Saturday I thought WE GOT THIS! But then Sunday afternoon came and I started feeling run down AGAIN. This cold/UGLINESS has been no joke. It has knocked me on my tush a few times. Luckily yesterday I felt a lot better and I got a ton done. I was so thankful because this week is the last INSANELY busy week we have of the school year. It’s Teacher Appreciation Week in our district too and I really try to make it special for Reese’s teachers, her aides and her therapists. It’s a lot of work, but when I think about what they do for her on a daily basis I just want to go overboard in thanking them. On top of that, Libs had a dental appointment yesterday. Which wasn’t a big deal, it’s the rest of her schedule this week that has me a little unnerved. She has two SAT tutoring sessions, an SAT practice test, her AP U.S. History exam and a whole slew of other tests and projects. Most of these things are out of our control. Things are scheduled when they are scheduled and you can’t do much about them, other than do your best to accomplish everything. Reese’s schedule is better than Libs but not by much. She has her usual dance and musical theatre classes this week but she also has two recitals and a Track Meet … all in about 24 hours! Again, how does everything seem to end up at the same time?!?! Oy!

Well, I hope you all have a day where things don’t pile up!!!

Human again …

After feeling lousy for a few days I woke up feeling SO MUCH better. I was scared it would wear off so even before Reese woke up I began tackling a bunch of chores I’d neglected. After getting Libs and Reese to school I pushed my luck and did more chores! I can’t tell you how excited I was to do chores. Sad, but true! When I survived that round I quickly jumped into the shower and rewarded myself with a manicure and pedicure plus some extras. I’m not 100% my self but I’m definitely heading in that direction. I’m so happy!

Well, I hope you all have a day where you feel human again!!!

A better tomorrow …

I got super duper sick Tuesday night. I felt AWFUL. I had a terrible sore throat, fever and chills. Yesterday I was about 4% better and completely exhausted. Today I limped my way through dripping, sneezing, coughing and still pretty miserable. I do NOT want another day of this thing. Heck, I don’t even want another minute of it. I need a miraculous healing!

Well, I hope you all have a better tomorrow!!!

Do it yourself …

The theme of my week (and I’m not liking it one bit) has been that I should not trust people with responsibilities … UNLESS I AM ON THEM LIKE STINK. Honestly, what is point of giving seemingly trustworthy people responsibilities when they have to be reminded multiple times (which I did) to carry out a task (which they didn’t)? That is neither trustworthy or responsible. SHEESH.

Well, I hope you all have a day where don’t have to do it yourself!!!