Today we officially said goodbye to Sidney. It’s not a final goodbye, of course, those hurt the worst. But it’s also not an “I’ll see you later” kind of goodbye either. This is a goodbye I have never experienced before. It’s a goodbye that assumes so much. Yes, we will see her again, and probably a lot sooner than it feels. But it is a goodbye entwined with change and an incredible amount of raw emotions. Life as we know it is done and gone. We are saying good bye to what we have known as HOME for the past almost 18 years. And we are left to redefine our “normal”. That is what this goodbye means.
And no, this isn’t the worst goodbye in the world, but it is certainly one I am unfamiliar with. I don’t know if I’ll ever really grow to like this kind of goodbye either. It hurts and it is uncomfortable. Truthfully I don’t think I’ve cried this much in a very long time. But as much pain that is involved in this goodbye I would want it no other way. Because this goodbye is also tied to the hopes and dreams of a beautiful young woman who is ready to start a life of her own … and I simply couldn’t be happier for her.
Well, I hope you all have a day where you say a new kind of goodbye!!!