I don’t care what you say about Miley Cyrus or what crazy (ingenious) marketing gimmicks she pulls, I absolutely love some of her songs. The one that made it onto my new training playlist is The Climb. I’ve had it on my iTunes account for some time now and it’s made it to a few other playlists, but for some reason this time … it speaks to me.
Each part of that song has literally covered every emotion I have been feeling, and know I will feel, until I cross that finish line in Ventura in September.
“I can almost see it.
That dream I’m dreaming, but
There’s a voice inside my head saying
You’ll never reach it
Every step I’m takin’
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin’
But I, I gotta keep tryin’
Gotta keep my head held high”
Wow. Well, if that doesn’t sum up my moments of self doubt perfectly, I’m not sure what does. I see what I want, and I want it badly. Confession time: since I began my training 6 weeks ago I’ve been haunted by the numbers 4:10. I wake up at that time for no reason at all other than it’s in my head … lingering … and unresolved.
Lately I’ve been finding peace in my absurd tenacity … my willingness to try, try, and TRY again … and my desire to learn all I can from this crazy life I have chosen for myself. To live it. To feel it. And to love it. Every step of the way.
“There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waitin’ on the other side
It’s the climb”
As the miles pass, I will have to face my fears, I will have to endure the physical and emotional pain, and I will have to deal with the set backs that I know, without a doubt, will come my way.
But I will REFUSE to be broken.
There will come a time in all of this when my weakest moments will be the times that I come to appreciate the most … and they will be revealed as my greatest victories. And as awful as some days WILL be, I just have to keep on lacing up, putting one foot in front of the other until that day comes.
“The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down,
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin’,
And I, I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on”
And I must keep hope alive. Mind. Body. And soul. Because deep down I know that a little bit of faith in God, the Universe and in oneself … goes … a very long way.
“Keep on movin’
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about, it’s all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith”
Well, I hope you all have a day where you decide it’s worth the CLIMB!!!